I'm going to write out how I feel right now and honestly it's way better for me to just write my feelings than speak them.
I like writing blogs about my walk and my struggles. I am open and honest with people. I don't see a point in hiding it. It will eventually be brought out to the light.
I, believe that God answers prayer. I firmly believe that prayer changes things. I don't think anyone will understand the things I gave up just to be where I am today.
I pray a LOT. And I see things. I hear things. I don't like being treated like a child. I'm not stupid. I'm not dumb. I'm not naive. I get so tired of people thinking I'm dumb.
I don't like it when I share something and it's like no one believes me. I don't have a crazy imagination. I get what I get and most of the time I don't like it!!!
Crazy, I know, but how am I suppose to do my job if no one believes me? It's not my fault you can't see it. Ask and you shall receive.
This God situation is driving me nuts!!! Yes, I have dreams! And yes, I have visions! Yes, I know His voice! Yes, I know what He looks like! Ahhhhhhhhh
I work extremely hard to pay attention to what God is saying and what He wants His people to hear. It makes my job very hard when His own people don't believe!
I'm sorry I'm not like you. I don't ever want to be like you at all. I am me. I'm insanely bossy. If I told people what I truly do, no one would believe me.
I fight hard and it sucks when people try to fight me. I'm not against you. I'm for you. Do you not understand that?! Ugh, it's just too much at times.
Sometimes, when I'm alone I wonder why God gave me this gift in the first place. No one listens. No one seems to care. No one pays attention. I told God today I might as well not say anything anymore to anyone. I'm done giving out warnings to people who are too busy to see the signs.
I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. I am human. I have flaws. I love sin just as much as the next person, but I don't abuse His grace and mercy.
I probably make a ton of stupid mistakes daily. And that's okay, why? Because I am just a mere human. I don't want to do God's job.
I will love you. I will point you in the right direction, but I'm going to mess up. I'm going to slip and fall. I'm not meant to carry this load by myself. I feel like I'm the only one who cares at times.
I'm overwhelmed and exhausted from praying and trying to help others. I'll admit it. It's not an easy job, but it's my job. I love it. There's not a day that goes by to where I don't thank God for giving me this unique gift. It's unheard of, yes, but it's not impossible.
Please know this and understand that I am here to talk if you need it, but please don't keep ignoring me. It makes me very upset and it honestly hurts my feelings.
I hope you had a great day. I hope you have sweet dreams and you have a peaceful night. Be blessed.