It's 3 am right now and I've been up since 2:15 or so but you know honestly I'm gonna be okay.
I don't know how people do it. I don't pray when I truly need something. I don't pray when it's my last resort. I don't wait to ask God for help.
I praise Him not for what He can do for me, no I praise Him for who He is and that is Healer, comforter, shelter, strong tower, provider, Dr, lawyer, counselor, Prince of peace, hope and many other things to me.
I don't wait until I'm deathly ill to ask God for His help. I ask God for help all hours of the day. I can't breathe on my own. I can't talk on my own. I can't walk, sit, eat, move or anything on my own.
My body isn't mine. I didn't create it. So, therefore I cannot tell my body what to do. Yes, my body has had a lot happen to it, but what body hasn't?
I look at myself now about to be 30 in a few short months and I say " Well done Nicole. Life isn't too shabby. I've met the man of my dreams. I have a career in writing. I never thought I would be an author let alone being a writer. I've come a long way. I'm very proud of my accomplishments. I should be because without God's help there was NO WAY I would be sitting up in bed typing this out in my phone.
I wanna tell you something it's not too late for you to live out your dreams. God gave us dreams for a reason. What are your goals? What are your hopes and aspirations in life? What profession do YOU feel is right for you?
I didn't plan this life that I'm living right now. God ordained my steps. He's the only one who can take credit for my successes in life.
I may never be a New York Times best seller. I may never win the Pulitzer Prize. And honestly, that's okay but I'm still going to try my best.
My hopes for you is that you realize just how incredible you are as a person. Your thought process is like no one else's. The way your brain works is like no one else's. You are not a mistake. You are not here on accident. You were born with a purpose.
Live out your dreams. Do not be afraid to make the first step. Don't wait on God unless He tells you too!! Then you wait! Trusting and believing in God's timing for your life is everything. What God has purposed for you, no man can take away.
If you have longings in your heart fulfill them. Don't let your life pass you by because before you know it. You will be on your death bed wishing and hoping and praying you could have lived out your dreams.
I'm going to close this with something I think everyone needs to hear and I hope you take it to heart. God loves YOU! He is for YOU! He's never against YOU! He created YOU with a purpose in mind.
If you feel like you've messed up, and trust me we ALL mess up. Ask God to forgive you. Ask God to show you where you belong. You may not like it. I didn't at first, but now I LOVE IT!!! I wouldn't trade it for the world.
God has great plans for you. Don't be afraid to trust in someone bigger than you. Let all that mess go and trust God and His perfect timing for your life.
I truly feel like God wakes me up on purpose just to write to you. Whatever you are going through, whatever your wants or needs are, whatever you are praying for, whatever it is God will take care of it.
Be blessed and know this, God loves YOU! Jesus loves YOU! And the Holy Spirit loves YOU! Goodnight and sweetest of dreams.