God is an awesome God. I mean seriously, look at yourself in the mirror. He took the time to create YOU. He took the time to hand craft the skies that pain a beautiful sunset and a beautiful sunrise. Look at the night sky and see if you can't count the stars! No, no one can match His worth for our God is an awesome God.
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I will be writing a blog today. Be blessed and have a beautiful day. I am starting a new book tour and I'm so excited!! The new book will be out soon and I'm so thankful for it. A book release party will be held at the full circle bookstore in Oklahoma City across from penn square mall. Thank you for you love and support it means a lot. I will post more later. I have two dates so far for my book tour. I'm so happy!! Thank you, Nicole :) I'm tired of seeing 50 shades of grey everywhere yuck!!! Go away! Nasty nasty people. Blah! The book gives me a bad taste in my mouth. Yuck I feel like I lose IQ points every single time some magazine posts about how "hot" the movie is going to be. No, you wanna know what's hot? Modesty, that's attractive not some girl with her boobs and her private parts exposed. These women leave nothing to the imagination anymore it's kim kardashain vs Amber rose or nikki vs j-lo. I get it. You have big butts. It doesn't mean you need to expose it all over God's great earth. I feel sorry for north. The baby is beautiful but doesn't ever smile. It makes me sad when her mother dresses her more like an accessory than a baby. If you look up to any of those kardashain girls or Kylie Jenner I feel sorry for you. Tyga is with a child. In any other instances he would be in jail for rape. But because they are famous they glorify it. Kids being pregnant at 15,16,17 years old. BE A KID! Do NOT wish to grow up faster. When I was that age I was way too busy between school, practices, games, homework and church to even think twice about having a baby at my age. The society today makes it okay. It saddens me. Modesty has gone out the window. Women, when you wear clothes that hug you too tight, show too much cleavage, or tight around the butt you are what the bible calls a STUMBLING BLOCK. You are so desperate for attention that you've forgotten the One who created you will give you His undivided attention. He doesn't want us women to be hanging out everywhere. It's not attractive. I'm so cautious of my shirts and how they fit. I'm not into clothes that are too tight because honestly it's just uncomfortable. I just wish women would understand their value a little bit more and know that they are one of God's greatest creations. You carry life in your body. You have a special place in your heart to be a mother. It comes naturally. Women need to learn to respect themselves and learn that God gave you those things for your husband and for your husband only his eyes are the only ones that need to see you like that not the rest of humanity. Be blessed. I'm writing a blog to let you know just how good God is and how faithful He is and has been. I almost lost it. I almost forgot what it was that I was supposed to do. You see, I got so mad and frustrated at myself because I lost faith in myself. I thought you know, this is it. Maybe I'm not supposed to write books. Maybe I'm not supposed to realize Free. Maybe it will come out way later. Maybe I should just not write anymore because it's not very helpful for me. I write for a living. I actually write. I am very good at it. Others may not think so, but I know it's my calling. I love writing. I love writing out my experiences for others. I want you to learn from my stupidity. I want you to learn from my pains. If I can help open your eyes than I've succeeded. I have such a passion to tell the world just how good God is to me. He has done great things for me. He saved me. He brought me back from the dead. He saved me from myself. He protected me from the countless times the devil wanted to seriously destroy me. I am not going to stop until every living soul knows God and knows how much He loves us. I may not have that kind of influence yet, but when the time comes watch out world! I want to draw you out. I see greatness in you. I see the person you can become. I see what you can't and because of this, my friend, God isn't finished with you yet! Oh no! He's only just begun. He wants you to be free. He wants those chains gone. He doesn't want you to be bogged down by your past. He wants you to walk in freedom. Victory is yours my dear friend. Free, is just that free! So don't you dare go back and pick it up. Leave it! Drop it and run, run hard and fast. Satan does NOT want you to be free. He wants to keep you there because if he can keep you there he's won. And if he can keep you chained down and confused he wins. Jesus fought for your right to be free! He conquered death and grave! Hell couldn't keep him out! You understand that? You get just how powerful Jesus is? At His name every knee will bow. It doesn't matter who you are or what you are at the end of the day. You will bow. Now, if you are reading this there is hope for you. Hope in Christ Jesus our Lord. He will break every chain that has been holding you captive. Faith,unlocks your destiny. Hope,gives you rest. Peace,gives you understanding. Joy,gives you endless laughter. Jesus, gives you life. Okay, I don't know where this pain is coming from not sure if it's my tooth or my ear at this point. Funny, because God promised me no more teeth problems and no more ear problems. And He never goes back on His word. The pain comes and goes it doesn't hurt to chew on my left side. It's not sensitive or anything it just a throbbing nerve. It's annoying. I've been dealing with a LOT this season and I swear the enemy is hitting me at every turn, but he can do whatever he wants to my body, my mind, my heart, and my soul. It still will not change my mind. I feel like I have pressure in my left ear and it's pretty painful. At this point I'm willing to see a dentist but the dentist screwed up my mouth forever. He took out teeth that weren't my wisdom teeth. He forever ruined my teeth. The oral surgeon felt bad for me. He was the one who took out my wisdom teeth. And told papa my mouth looked awful like someone did a half way sort of thing in my mouth. He left nerves exposed. He left me with chipped teeth. The oral surgeon did his best to fix my mouth but told me flare ups would happen out of nowhere and he couldn't fix nerve damage. How this happened no clue, but God will always come to my rescue. He sees my pain. He knows it hurts. He heals me. It comes back. At this point I truly want to give up. My pain level has been tested. My faith has been test. My body is tired. My head hurts. I honestly, want to throw in the towel and be done. I don't understand it. I will never understand it. God is still good. He still answers prayer. He will help me through this I fully rely on Him. I can't be upset anymore I can, it's just not going to do me any good at this point. I can cry, throw a fit, shake my fists, stomp my feet, but for what? It's not going to help me at this point. I pray I get some sleep. I'm praying this throbbing pain stops. Hope you all have a beautiful day :) be blessed. I don't know where to start on this one, but I'll just tell you how I feel right now because I just get so frustrated and I guess I just sometimes forget who is in charge. I am feeling a LOT right now and to be honest, I just don't know about this whole book process it's becoming way too much for me.
I guess I will write because I'm just in a mood. I feel empty. I mean literally empty. I'm done with my emotions. I've spent way too much time, emotions and I've had it. When I feel this way it's just because someone needs a word. Or simply I'm not spending enough time with Him. Im not sure where this sadness came from honesty I have no reason to be sad. I'm in a weird, weird mood. I'm sure it has to do with me being tired. I worked out hard. And I had beef for dinner. I hardly ever eat it because it makes me violently ill. It's a gallbladder issue. It's been out for 5 years this may and I still can't look at beef the same way. I'm getting mad at things that are out of my control. I'm stressing myself out for this thing I'm desperately trying to control. I might as well give it up. God isn't going to budge. I'm stubborn. And I'm very prideful. I want it to workout so bad that I'm fighting to keep it in place. I'm just gonna let it go. I have no business clinging to it. If you are struggling with letting things go, God wants you to trust Him that He will not let you fall. He will catch you. He will be there to see you through. God made me promises and He will make sure they happen. It's up to me to not lean on my own understanding because I will get myself all tangled up and confused. I would screw myself up. I'll end up hurting myself instead of helping. I'm not smarter than God. I'm not bigger than Him. I'm not stronger than Him. I can't move Him out of the way. Trust me, I've tried before and it didn't workout in the end. He sees my frustration. He sees my heart and He knows that I just am over it. This process has been way harder than the first time. My goodness, this is nowhere near has hard, or painful than the first time. A coal doesn't turn into a diamond immediately. It's a process. The harder the pressure the more it goes through the process the better the diamond. Being broken isn't fun. It's a very painful process. A process where God shows us just how big, powerful, and Just He truly is because it's not ever going to be about me. He's God. I am not. I hope you find encouragement in this messy blog. Be blessed and goodnight. God loves you, Jesus loves, and the Holy Spirit loves you. I think it's about time we start to address the real issue here in our country. I think we need to look past the divide that people are causing for no reason. I want to look deeper if you will, and see something so clear to God's eyes that we only look at the appearance and I think we should look into the heart of the matter.
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