I'm honestly done at this point. I have had it with people who could careless i am here. I don't get it. Everything was good up until it was time for my check to get here. Now, my author copy isn't here. I'm honestly not sure what I should do at this point.
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I figured it out. I should have known when my left side of my face was starting to cause me pain. I should have known that God is a not a liar. I should have figured it out when that devil kept messing with me. That devil kept doing his best to block my book from coming out. I got you, I see what you are doing now, and I will send out a blockade to protect my book. You see, you almost had me. You almost had me in tears. You can stress me out, freak me out and do whatever you want, but what you forgot is I serve a God who doesn't lie. He is a man of His word. What you neglected to get is I would eventually figure you out but you were so good at sneaking around in the dark. You thought if I put my focus on being mad at God for not allowing this to happen like He promised me long ago, you thought you'd get away with it. I heard a voice in the stillness of the night telling me to wake up! He allowed the scales to fall off and see what was going on around me. So, I'm calling you out satan, you have been messing with my book and you see, once people read it they to, can be free. You don't want that to happen no, you want to keep people there so that you can have power over them. You thought I was going to be sad. You thought I was going to be mad at God for things not happening when it was suppose to, but God caught it. And I'm so glad I didn't blame God for the mess satan caused. So, with that said I will be super excited when the book is released :) be blessed! Here I am sitting up at 11 at night with pain in the left side of my face. I honestly can't pinpoint it so, who knows where it's coming from at this point. I am angry that satan is messing with me. God promised me years ago I would never have any more ear or teeth pains again. That old devil is screwing with me. I feel like Job right now and to be honest with you I'm tired of that devil screwing with me. He's messing EVERYTHING up for me. He has been hiding things from me. He has been ruining this book process left and right. I rebuke him in the Mighty name of Jesus! I'm tired of it. He's really messing with my heart, my life and my emotions. He's been giving me doubts. He's been giving me anxiety. He's been stressing me out ALL FOR NO REASON! God has made Himself known throughout all of this and right now, He's telling me to fight. He knows I'm sick. He knows I'm in pain, but you see the enemy only sees one thing. My weakness. God sees my heart. And right now God is telling me to stand up and fight for myself. God has given me the tools to defeat the enemy. He has given me promises that satan is messing with and trying to turn me against my God. Look dingbat, it isn't going to work. God told me " No weapon formed against me shall prosper." So, I claim what's mine right now in the name of Jesus. I claim healing. I claim peace. I claim rest. I claim it all back. Everything that you have stolen from me I want it back. I'm not going to leave you alone until everything you stole from is given back. God is good. He is faithful. He is my Healer. He is my provider. He is my hope. He is my rock. He is my peace. He is my shelter. He will protect me from you. He will raise up a standard against you. You will NOT succeed. You see devil, while you are stressing me out, freaking me out, putting pain in my body, making me so sick that I nearly forgot that I have a God who loves me and wants to protect me and heal me from all the hell you are trying to unleash on my life. So, what I'm going to do right now is rebuke you. I'm going to stop you right now and trust me, God will make you pay for what you are doing to my body. I was given promises and you go and screw it up. What you neglected to understand is I serve an awesome, mighty, faithful God. While I am in pain I will praise the Most High, why you ask He is more than worthy of it. As I sit here and type this out on my phone I feel God starting to heal me. I may not understand everything right now and that's okay, but I do understand that I must praise Him through this storm and I will lift my voice and say" Lord, I worship You because of who You are" So, devil just in case you have forgotten I think I want to reminder " Our God is an awesome God He reigns from Heaven above with wisdom, power, and love our God is an awesome God." And I want to close this out saying this to you, yes, you the person reading this you may not understand why you are being attacked, but I'm here to tell you God will not fail you. God never left your side. He's fiercely fighting on your behalf so, now that I'm getting ready to go back to bed I claim full healing in Jesus' name. Hope you read this and find encouragement in these words. I've been so busy I forgot to write a blog. Have a merry Christmas and be blessed I want you to be encouraged today. This season is tough. You may feel overwhelmed. You may feel neglected. You may feel ignored. You may feel like no one gives two craps about you. You may be struggling financially, but I want you to be encouraged today because God will see you through. You may feel like He has forgotten about you and you may feel like your prayers are falling on deaf ears. You may feel like you can't stay afloat. You may feel like one more blow you may call it quits. You may feel like nothing is working. You may feel like everything is going horribly wrong. You may feel like your children may not have the things they'd want, but they have everything they need. You may feel like you're on your last dollar and you don't have enough to eat or pay for those bills that keep pilling up on you. You may feel like you're running on empty and you're not sure how you will make it. I want to tell you something STOP! Knock that nonsense off. Stop stressing over presents. That isn't want this season is about. God gave His son to us as a gift. He gave His only son so that when we accept Him as our personal Lord and Savior He will take care of everything. I'm not saying He will give you a million dollars by tonight, but He will give you a job. He will provide everything you need. He will be EVERYTHING you could ever want or need. He will provide ALL of your needs according to His riches and glory. Stop worrying about stuff that doesn't matter. You have your health. You have your family. No, they are not perfect nor are you. You have a roof over your head. You have food to cook. You have hot/cold water. You have clothes. You have a car that gets you from point A to point B. You have everything you need. To those who have no home, food, water, clothes, or a car God sees you. To the spoiled Christian who thinks you got it all on your own, you better check yourself before you wreck yourself. You own nothing. I want you to know this, life sucks. No, God isn't going to make us all billionaires, but He will give us a job to provide for ourselves and our families. Be encouraged today as you read this blog because God will provide. I know it firsthand. He is good. He is worthy. He is everything good in this world. Let this season be about Jesus let it be about His birth. Let us not forget why we celebrate this beautiful season. Be blessed. Have a beautiful and merry Christmas! If you need prayer leave a comment. If you need prayer message me. God loves you. Jesus loves you and the Holy Spirit loves you. Be blessed today! "Bless the Lord oh my soul and forget not all the benefits." What an awesome God we serve. What an all powerful,amazing God we serve. He didn't have to, but He did. Healing belongs to you. Peace belongs to you. Joy belongs to you. What an awesome God we serve. There is no stopping Him. He was, is, and forever will be. What you need to understand is He is God. He will not bow down to our humanly demands. He is King. He is Lord. He is God. He reigns. You do not. You own nothing but what He has given to you. So, treat it with respect. He gives and He takes away. He doesn't have to listen to you. If it benefits Him, He will do it. What we need to understand when it come to Him is, He is patient. He is kind. He is loving. He is everything we need. He loves us far too much to leave us where we are so, if you feel like blaming God for all your problems I would think again. God is not drama. He doesn't surround Himself with such foolish things. He doesn't care if you want to do it your way. Because in the end He will have His way. God is all powerful. He is grace. He is mercy. His loving kindness is sweet as honey. So, if you are struggling with anything right now just know this, breakthrough is on its way. The rain cannot last long. The clouds have to break. The sun has no choice but to shine. Have faith that He will see you through to the end. Be blessed. Have a beautiful day. You know what I love about God? He's always there. You may go through hurt and pain, but He is still there. He will not leave when it's getting rough. He's going to stick it out with you. God is all knowing. He's everywhere. You can't escape Him. There's something about the name of Jesus. People have no problem with God, but when you mention the name of Jesus people get their panties in a bunch. I never understood it when I was younger. I knew who God was at an early age. He would visit me in the hospital room. He would tickle me. He would make me laugh when I wanted to cry. He has so much power in His hand. He can bring the dead back to life. He can bring peace to your restlessness. He made me so happy while I was so sick. You see, it didn't matter that I almost lost my life. I knew who He was and because I understood His language at an early age. I find it easier to go to Him because of the relationship that was started a long, long time ago. He didn't have to, but He did. I know Him personally. I've seen His face. I know His voice. I know what makes Him happy. I know what breaks His heart. I wouldn't dare to make Him mad. I wouldn't dare to mock Him. You do that at your own risk. I want you to understand something, He is God. Everything that has ever happened to or will happen to you has to go through Him first. You see, at the name of Jesus brings power to any situation you are dealing with right now. It breaks the chains that are holding you back. It breaks the walls. It turns your tall mountains into sand. He is, was and forever will be. You say what you want, but I'm here to tell you this you can do it now or wait until the end. But at the name of Jesus, every knee will bow. And every tongue will confess that He is Lord. So, go ahead and live your life how you want just don't wait until that day to accept Him as your Lord and Savior. It will be too late. So, be encouraged today and know this, God loves you. He cares about you. He wants you chain free and weight free. His burden is light and yoke is easy. He wants us to love Him not for what He has done but because of who He is and if you don't know how good He is just ask and He will show you just how good He truly is be blessed. I'm so excited for these new changes that are happening in my life. I am impressed with how God has taken my fears and my doubts and trades them for peace that surpasses all understanding. Life doesn't stop moving. It keeps going. If you are struggling in any way, shape, or form know this, God will show Himself strong in your time of need. He will out do your expectations. He will meet your every need. He is the only one who can turn a mess into a message. God has His own way of doing things. I'm not always going to like it. I'm not always going to be in the mood for it. What I do know is this, He doesn't care about my plans. He doesn't care if His plans ruin mine. He doesn't care because it's not about me and my feelings. It's ALL about Him. He will get His way. To the one who is reading this letting it go is your best bet right now. All the hurt, pain, anger, and disappointment from other people are not going to go away. Humans are selfish in nature, but God, is different. He is loving, kind, understanding, peaceful, and He will take all that has been weighing you down and give you His burden. It's easy and it is light. God didn't promise us fairness, instead He gives us peace for the things we cannot understand. He goes out of His way to make sure you are well taken care of and you wanna know why He does it? Because He loves you! His love is real. His guidance is true. He can be trusted. He is the only one who can do the impossible. He is who He says He is!!! I promise you, He will never leave you nor forsake you. He's there until the bitter end. Be encouraged tonight and know this, that as you are reading these words from me I want you to know God loves you and He cares for you. Be blessed. I have to ask myself a lot if this writing thing is what God truly wants me to do. It's extremely hard. It makes me upset. I get sad. I get my feelings hurt a lot. I've applied for so many jobs. I've yet to actually get one. I guess I want a chance and no one is willing to give it to me. I'm incredibly smart. I may not always act like it but I am. I promise. I know it's easy to make fun of me. Heck, I get it. It happens all the time. I get upset because I'm not getting paid every two weeks. It's upsetting. I get jealous of people who work a regular job. But here's the thing are they fulfilling their God given destiny? Are they truly happy with where they are in life? If given the choice would you leave your daily grind for your dream job? What is your dream job? Are you living it right now? I often like the idea of not being bogged down by the daily grind. I like not working at times. Other times it bothers me and I don't always get what I want. It's a reality check. I went from having money to asking for it. I work hard on this book. I feel like it's not getting anywhere, but that levy will break. The more I work at it. It will eventually break. The blessing will come in due time. I have to keep working at it. God will reward me for my hard work. He will protect my seed. He sees me. He sees my hurt. He sees my pain. He's watching me. He's going to protect my harvest. What have you been laboring on? What have you been working towards? You should know this, God will not allow the enemy to uproot the seeds you've sown. He sees everything. He has been watching you. I hope you read this and find encouragement. Be blessed and thank you for reading. |
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