I'm hoping you read it! It's gonna be awesome :) at least I think so but have a good night :)
This is for my girls. This right here is for all the women in my life. May you be older than me or younger than I? I want to give this to you. If you know me personally or just know of me. I want to challenge you with something. What kind of woman are you to your friends? I want to surround myself with women who are strong in their faith. I want to surround myself with women who are steadfast and are dedicated to becoming better at their jobs, relationships and becoming the best woman they can be.
I want you to read this if you can and tell me how it makes you feel. I want to be that woman you look to in times of need. I want to be that woman who can make your day just a little brighter than it was before. I want to help encourage you to be the best person you can possibly be. I want to be that ear you need. I want to be that shoulder you need. I want to be that tower you can run to when you need someone to help shield you from the wind and rain. I want to be a strong woman. I want to be the best person I can be. I need help at times. I need to listen to the advice of those who are older than I and have been through the same things that I have been through. I love how we can all find a common ground between us. I am thankful for each and every woman I know personally. I love the laughs. I love the tears we have shed together. I want to sharpen you. I want to be that one who will tell you the harsh truth. I want to be someone you can confined in no matter what. I will hold your secrets. I am good at keeping secrets. I think the average woman needs help more now than ever. They need to know that they can be everything that they dream of. I would love to help push you to achieve your dreams. They are not that far off. You were made for something more than you give yourself credit for. It is easier for a man to make it. But, being a woman is harder. It makes us try harder. It makes us work longer. Being a woman is the best thing in the world. We share the same emotions. We share the same insecurities. We share the same pains at child birth. *well some of us;)* the rest of us will get there. We woman need to encourage each other. We do not need to put each other down. We do not need to gossip about each other. Being a woman is more than just being his other half. Being a woman is amazing. Being a woman is God’s way of showing compassion. For every woman that I know this I hope touches your heart. I hope it makes you want to be that much stronger. I hope this makes you want to try just a little bit harder. I hope it strengthens your faith just a little bit more. I want to be a voice for women who have none. I want to tell you that being a woman is incredible. Women don’t often know their worth. And I want to tell you that my dear Princess that you are worth far more than the rarest of jewels on this Earth. When God created women he knew that we needed a protector. But, we are not talking about men now are we? NO!! We are talking about being a woman. A woman is sexy inside and out. Being a woman I think is strong, smart, independent, and beautiful and knows how to make it work for her. So, with that all said and done. I hope you like this and feel that I only want the best for you. Because Princesses you do deserve the best that He has to offer you. Never ever settle for less than His best. ~Nicole :) ~ I want to write this next book as something that everybody needs. I want to write something that’s different than what I had originally planned. I’m not a singer. I’m not someone fancy. But, I am someone who has been writing nonstop for the past 10 years. I haven’t thought about where I’d like to go in life. I haven’t really thought about whom I’d want to meet and who I’d like to talk to about becoming something great. But, more importantly I want to reach out to people. I have yet to meet a person who doesn't love to read.
I know everyone has a story. Everyone wants to be heard. Everyone wants that special moment where they shine. Not everyone gets it. Not everyone gets that shining moment. I don’t think I will get that moment but for those that do, cherish the moments that are given to you. You were made to shine. I hate seeing people not living up to their fullest potential. If I had that kind money I would write checks to those in need. I would take my time getting to know people and their needs. I have seen so much devastation throughout the past few years that I find it sickening that not one celebrity feels the need to donate more than a thousand dollars to the issues in this world. I find it upsetting that with all this extra money lying around they can’t seem to give more of it. We helped create you. We put you in the spot light. You work hard because you have to keep making more movies to live. But, not everyone has that to be an actor. But, many want to have that kind of money to keep their heads above water. I have to ask when I write this blog how many of you think you’d be better off with just a few more dollars in the bank. How many of you would like to help way more but you have to work two or three jobs just to get by? I know that from not having any money come in yet, that I have felt helpless and I have felt like I can’t do much. But, there is plenty I can do. I can pray for those that do have that kind of money to be moved to give just a little bit more than they are used to. I can pray for God to supply their needs when everyone is struggling to get by who’s going to take care of us? I don’t know about you but, I know that if I had just a little taste of that money I would want to help those who need it. I wouldn't let you abuse it. I would give you what you needed nothing more. I think that’s the problem with people. They expect you to give everyone you meet a handout. I don’t agree with that at all. You need to work for the money. I have worked hard to get the things I have right now. I would love nothing more than to see people caring just a little bit more than they do. I would love to see people reaching out to help their neighbor. I know now that everyone has gone crazy. I know that people do not care has much as they used to and with that our world has fallen apart. I am not sure what else to do. I think something inside of us all causes us to rise up and reach out to our fellow man. I don’t want people to wait until a disaster to strike to start helping someone else out. It’s a shame that government has to do the church’s job. Yes, I went there and if you don’t like it then I suggest you change it. The church should be doing more and going that extra mile. I do not understand why no one seems to get this and because of that the world is suffering because the church is too busy turning people away instead of bringing them in and loving them. I know this blog is long. I know that this blog is different than my other ones. I know that something has to change. I think this world has grown cynical and cold. This world has grown old bitter people. The children are ruthless. They are shameless. They all dress with things falling out and showing. No one has self-respect. No one has respect for other people and their property. No one has respect for the Law and constitution. No one has respect for the Church. No one has respect for God. We rip him apart every time he’s mentioned in public or in private. This is gross. This world has gone downhill and I blame you for it. I blame everyone reading this post. I blame myself for not giving a little more attention to the person next to me. I blame those who think they are so much better than everyone else. No one is better than the next person I don’t care who you are in God’s eyes we are all the same. Yes, that means you President. You can’t seem to get your act together long enough to convince us to show that we can trust you. I know this blog is long. I don’t think many will get the chance to actually go through to the end. But, if you do read it just know that we are all redeemable. We are all under grace and mercy. We are all under God’s will and whatever he wants to do with us. We belong to him and only him. He created us for more than just taking up space. We have a purpose. We have good plans for our lives. We were created for much more than just living day to day. I want you to see just how good our God is and just how wonderful he truly is to us. I want you to read this blog and feel better about yourself. I want you to know that we all struggle with our image. We all have issues. But, I hope you understand that you are more than matter. You have a heart that longs for something better. You have a heart that craves attention and affection. You have a soul that needs to be fed on a daily basis. You have a free will that I think we abuse. But, I say all this to tell you that no matter where you are or what you do that you have a purpose. You were born for more than just taking up space. I hope you have a great evening. Love and blessing to you and your family. I had to reevaluate myself. You know when you want something to happen but you know you have wait for it? Well, I hate waiting. I think 99% of this human population feels this way. I wanted to say that after talking to someone and knowing that I think I am being a bit dramatic.
Have you ever felt like God is ignoring you? Have you ever felt like nothing is going your way? Well, I am right there with you. I know that all things work out for the good of those who love him. He will turn it around for you. The only thing is you have to wait for him to give it to you. He's not going to hand it to you on a silver platter. Would be nice wouldn't? Well, it's not going happen. God wants you to work for it. He wants to know that he can trust you to manage the small things. I hate knowing that I can go out and get a job but, the problem lies with me something inside of me tells me" don't settle you deserve better." I shrug it off and roll my eyes. I do it anyway because money is nice to have. I know what it is like to not have any and I am not a people person. I hate working people. I know I make zero sense when I say that but, it's true. People are fickle. People are never on time. People are so strange. I like people but, I can't work with people. I don't work well with others. I like being in charge. I will run you over if i get the chance. I am person who likes to see others do their job. I have no idea why, but I have it in my head that I am a boss. I love being in charge. I feel like I can do a better job than most. I have no idea why i feel like that towards people. I am not better than you. I don't claim that at all. I just it's the way I carry myself. I don't think many understand my weird ways. I am someone who sees your potential and wants to pull that out of you. I want you to be the best person you can be. Now that's out of the way I want you to know that I am seriously struggling with where I am suppose to be and what I am suppose to be doing with my life. I am not sure if God wants me to keep applying for jobs or he wants me to sit and wait. I am sure without a doubt that he has called me to be better than what I was yesterday. I know the past can come back to haunt us if we allow it. I haven't made up my mind on what I want to do exactly and because of that do I keep writing books? Or do I keep looking for another job? I know God will give me answers I just need to seek his face. I don't want much. I want his love and affection. He's the only one that needs all of my attention. I don't know if I should mention the fact that I have a degree or just keep my mouth shut. I don't know if I should stop freaking out about not having a "job" and be happy with the fact that He has given me more than enough to keep me satisfied. He provides and i'm over here gripping that he's not giving me enough. I know he's standing there looking at me with the look I know he gives me at times when I'm to stupid to read the signs. He has his arms folded and that look that burns into my soul has my attention. He feels neglected. He feels like I am paying too much attention to the must have's than the things i do have and because of that i feel frustrated. I feel like nothing is working. I know I'm talking to myself and possibly someone else. He's giving me that look because he knows that I have to stop and let him take care of things that need to be taken care of. He wants me to fully trust him. He wants me to fall into his arms. He will always be there to catch me. I know that he's giving me that look because I've seen it many times before and I'm sure you have too. He has given me more than enough. He has given me all that I could ever want and yet i'm complaining that i am not happy with it. He has given me enough and yet I don't think it's enough. I have to get over that mess. I stopped talking to him because what's the point if hes not going to answer me? But, then I stop myself and hear him say" I have heard you. I have listened to every word you have said out of your mouth. I have heard every single complaint but, not one thank you. I have yet to hear you thank me for giving you more than enough. I can take it all away. I can take it back. But, I will not because I love you more than enough. I love you far more than you will ever understand. I will keep giving you more than enough because to me, you are more than enough. I will always provide for you. I will never not give you something because you feel like you don't deserve it. I will always give you what you need. I do things in my own timing. I do not need your permission to allow things to happen to you. I do not need your permission to allow money to come to you. I do not need your permission to accomplish my will. I suggest you start trusting in my abilities. I suggest you start listening more often when I say "STOP" You must stop. You don't have to but,it would be in your best interest to do so. When I tell you to "WAIT" It's not because I like to see you suffer. It is because I want you know that I will provide something better for you. And when I say" NO" I mean it. I mean it with every fiber of my being. I want you to be protected. I can not protect you when you are away from me. I can not protect you when you are in sin. I can not stand by and let you harm yourself in that way. I wish you would just trust me enough to know that I would never, EVER leave you. I would never, EVER forget about you. I would never,EVER turn my back on you. I wish you get that what I do, I do it for you. I want you to understand that there is nothing more you can do to make me love you any more or less than I already do. You child are mine. I will do whatever it takes to protect you. I hope you understand all that I tell you. I truly do have your best interest at heart." I know that this may or may not relate to you. But, if you are struggling to find a way to make money for you and your household just know that God will provide for you. I have learned a lot of hard lessons in my life. I want you to know that this love he gives is real. That this thing I have for him cannot be replaced by man. I love that he always comes through even when I flake out on him. I know that this blog is a lot to take in and that's just me. I am a lot to take in at times. But, at least I can say that if I can make it through hard times. Then you my friend can make it. Nothing in life is to hard for our God. I hope you have a good afternoon and be blessed friends :) Thank you for reading, Nicole :) again and I've yet to hear anything back. It's been over two weeks. I'm starting to think they don't want to talk or do a story anymore and it's getting kind of frustrating. I gave them the book a month ago. I'm just tired of people giving me the runaround. It's not helping my stress. I'm just annoyed and there's nothing I can do about it. ImIn a race. But, in order to do that I need to train myself hardcore for it. I ran for 1.5 and I about passed out! But, I am going to run and keep my heart in shape. Everything is the matter of the heart. Have you noticed that too? But, I hope you are having a great night. I will post more later. Nicole, Lets hope this doesn't crash again. This is my 4th try. I'm writing on my iPad. I can't keep up with two different blog sites. Since I use my phone a lot. I may just reopen my word press account. There's no way I can't keep both. Weebly sucks on my iPhone. It sucks because I have my stuff on here and they can track my numbers and my growth. I don't think there's a way to track numbers on word press. I'm kind if frustrated. Oh we'll I guess today kind of makes realize I that I don't have a day to day job like everyone else and I guess it makes me kind of upset that I don't have the money. He has been teaching me a very hard lesson. I have always provided for myself. I have always been with a job. I haven't gone without one.
I have no problem with getting on so, I've always had one in my back pocket. I want to understand but I can't get it through my thick head that I'm suppose to rely on him and only him to provide for me. I know that when things go south that I have someone to trust and hold onto and that he will give me the things that I need not a moment before or after. He's always right on time. This one is kind of short but I will post more later. I just had to get this mess out of my system. God is more than faithful if you are more than willing to obey. I know the title says it all because our God is more than Able to do far beyond our expectations. He has these ways that make no sense at times. I know it's weird to think that this invisible force is for us. He longs to make connections with you.
I think back at all the times were I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he came through for me. He pulled me through the worst times I have ever been through but he loved me enough to not leave me there. He took it upon himself to grab me before I reached death. He knew I had way too much to live for and my life wasn't over yet. You have any idea how great he is to me. You see people in church raising their hands. You see them jumping up and down screaming and shouting and running around. You see them acting all crazy and you seem put off but you have no idea where they came from. You have no idea the crap they went through and you have no idea the cost of their praise. I always thought it was weird. I never really liked the idea of raising my hands and doing those things but, come to find out that it's in the Bible. It's written throughout the Bible. You think Noah was crazy for the stuff he believed in? Yeah, rain oh okay. So, when it happened nothing was save. Every story throughout the Bible as someone coming out and standing up for what is right even when it seemed like nothing going right. The Israelite people were God's chosen. To him they were his children and like all children they disobey and they need to be punished for their wrong doing. But, through their disobedience they found grace and mercy. He put through all sorts of tests and trails. He made sure they sought him out in times of trouble. He was more than able to get them out but, he wanted to teach them a lesson. Some of these lessons were harsh but to say that God didn't love them was far from the truth. He loved them enough to give them punishment for their bad behavior. Just like our kids we have to show them right from wrong. God does the same with us. He is more than able to wipe out all fear. He is more than able to wipe out cancer. He is more than able to wipe out pain. But, because of our sins we need to be reprehended for them. We need correction for our wrong doings. He loves us more than enough to be our parent. He wants you to be happy. He wants you to be successful. He doesn't want you to be suffering. He paved the way for us to be happy and healthy it's up to us to take it and thank him for it. He didn't have to die for us but he did it anyway, love is so powerful. His love for us makes it possible for us to make it through the hardest of days. He is more than able to take some who sleeps around and turns her around and shows her that she is worth far more than what she gives herself credit for and that no man will respect her if she doesn't learn to love and respect herself. I learned some very, very hard lessons in life. What hard lessons did you have to learn? Are you in the middle of learning a lesson? I know you are not thankful for it now, but later on you will be so glad he pulled you out of that mess you were in am I right? In all the things we went through are not happy that he didn't keep you there? I leave you with this tonight because I want you to think back at all the things you went through and don't tell me you went through them alone. He had his hand over you the entire time. You may not have seen it but, he protected you. He shielded you. He lifted you up. He held you. He was the fence around you. He was the light in the darkest of nights. He was more than able to see you through. He came through for you. I hope you have a great night. Be blessed be |
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