Hello, how goes your day? Anything new? I wanted to write a blog just because i feel like there is still something that needs to be said to us.
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Frustration is something i don't like dealing with because it makes me a cranky person. I don't like being mean but, in all honesty being forgotten doesn't really help me out. and with that said i'm going to let myself cool off and just stop dwelling on it because it's not going to help me out in the long run.
so, i want to talk to you about what's going on with me if you don't mind me talking about myself for a little bit. I am working on book number two well technically book number three and it will be done soon. I am not going to rush with this one because this one i feel has a deeper meaning for me. I have been making quotes for this one and i think my favorite ones are " We all long to be set free." And " No more weights, No more chains, No more boundaries, No more limits I am free." It's going to be talking about being free and breaking the chains that once held you captive. God doesn't want us to suffer. He doesn't want us to keep being held hostage by our sins. He wants you to be free and to be free we need to let go of the past and know that God has our best interest at heart. I want you to know that we all have invisible chains that hold us back in life. I want you to know that even i have chains that i have found wrapped around me. These chains are trying to keep me from moving forward and they are keeping me from being free. I want to understand things that are out of my control. I will not ever understand why people bully me. I will not ever understand why people forget about me. I will not ever understand why people hurt me but, it doesn't matter anymore, why you may ask well, i will tell you God doesn't want me to harbor the hurt and pain any longer. He wants me to set it free before it hurts me. He wants me to let go of the invisible chains that have took my soul hostage. These chains have started to smother me. These chains have entangled themselves so tight in my heart that i honestly don't think i can hold out much longer. Are you in the place as me? Do you have invisible chains that are holding you hostage? Chains are deadly. They do their best to snuff you out of your God given destiny. These chains bind your dreams to a stake and make you pay a hefty price to release them. But, i'm here to tell you God already paid that price for you to be free. He sent his son Jesus to pay the price for our sins. He conquered it all. He overcame death. He overcame fear. He overcame your sins. He doesn't want you to hold on to the these things that are taking over your life. I pray you open your heart once again. I pray that if you are dealing with these invisible chains i pray that you hear what God is saying to you. He breaks every chain! Jesus will come and untangle you from your past. Being free is not something we Christians understand we can't let go of who we were and we let others remind us of our past. We keep little reminders of yesterday. We keep little reminders of the words that once cut us so deeply. I challenge you to let go of the things that you are holding onto and when you let go you will then understand what it means to be free but, once you are free don't you dare go back and try to find that what you let go. I pray you take this and read for yourself in the Bible. Take up your sword and know it well because if you are in the word the enemy can't distract you. Be wise friends. Be aware of the traps that are being set out for you. With God all things are possible! He wants you to be free from your sins and your past. Be blessed friends have a great night :) Hope everyone is having a good evening I went to church this am and I enjoyed it. I enjoy going. I miss being apart of a group of people. But, I think this whole writing another book thing is good but, should I write more? I have 10 pages done for this second one I think I want it to be Free instead of Fly. When you're home you are free from the chains that link themselves to you. They hold us captive. We have chains that we choose not to address and that's fine but, in order to be truly free we have to break the chains including the ones that no one else sees and since they can't see them should we keep them or give them up? Chains hold you back from achieving your full potential. Chains limit your blessing. Chains cripple your soul. Chain hold you hostage. Chains keep you from fully engaging in God's word. Chains can cause death. What invisible chain is holding you back? We long to be free. We long to soar high with eagles but, something is holding us back. Is it fear? You are more than enough. You are worth it. Fear of the unknown is okay, but don't let it steal your joy, your peace, your hope and your faith. Chains need to be broken off our lives. We will not ever enjoy freedom if we are still holding onto our past. I'm still working on the book in the mean time. I want my heart to be in the right place when I write this next one because once you are Home it's then you will truly be Free. I had a fantastic day today! I cannot thank Merisa enough for buying the books. That made my day. I'm glad some of my family made it out to Lawton. I am blessed and grateful for having one my first one ever! I met a nice guy. He saw my book and his acronym stuck in my head. He said "Heaven On Mother Earth" it was beautiful. I met a few people. Some took bookmarks. I'm finally seeing my calling and it's slowly unfolding in front of my eyes. I didn't know what I was going to do for summer. I didn't want to work summer camp. I prayed about it. I heard a voice clearly ask me to call hastings so, putting aside my hurt and disappointment I did it. It completely changed me. I am busy. I did not think it would happen but, you should know there is a time and place for everything so, with that said I think it's my time to fly. I had such a great day. I look forward to the challenges ahead. I look forward to the rain because it's going to rain blessings down on me. My land has seen too many years of drought. But, today the clouds came and it started to mist. I look forward to the day when my harvest is in full bloom. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. It means a lot. Thank you, Nicole :) Grace and mercy are ever flowing. We screw up so many times. But, I am so thankful for grace and mercy to cover me. I'm still human. I still get hurt. I fall easy.I learn lessons the hard way. I'm stubborn. I'm hard headed. I have selective hearing when it comes to what God wants. I roll my eyes. I fold my arms and throw a tantrum. I get mad when things don't go my way. I'm easily frustrated at my own attempts to go before him and thinking I can handle it by myself. I'm easily distracted. God's way is sometimes too hard. It brings me out of my comfort zone (which I hate). I would rather ignore the pulling in my heart than actually give into him. But, despite all of this he is willing to look past my bratty self and help me. His love for me goes far beyond my selfish ways. He's so kind. He's so patient. He's loving and he's ever so stern. Like a father he wants the best for me regardless of how I feel towards it. He loves me so much that he's not going to leave me where I am. But, he is good enough to turn us around and get us back on the right track. I could go on and on but I think you get the point. We are humans. We will never understand him. I love the way he gets to the root of the problem and plucks it out. It causes me to left open and vulnerable. He wants me happy and healthy so going through the fire is the only way to do that. Once we are broken we can experience all the good things he longs for us to have and enjoy. He may seem mean at times. And we may shout" I HATE YOU!" at times but, it doesn't matter. His love for us out weighs our hateful banter. His love is so deep. It's so wide and it has no end. Who can measure the depths of his love? Forgiveness according to the Merriam-Webster forgiveness (v) :to stop feeling anger toward ( someone who has done something wrong) : to stop blaming (someone) The bible clearly talking about this how it's not just for them. It's more importantly for us. The one who has done you wrong. You must forgive them. I know you think it's unforgivable but, a very harsh reminder found in Matthew 6:15 " But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins" ( NLT) So, there you have it folks it's clear that we do not have any business holding onto that hurt and anger. The longer you nurture it. The more feed it. The longer it stays the more it's going to hurt you. Forgiveness not only sets them free but it sets you free. I have been wronged one too many times. And one main example is my dad. I was still harboring pain and holding it against him. But, I forgave him or so I thought it wasn't until a few months ago that I fully let myself forgive him. I told him I understand. I will pray for your safety. I forgive you for not wanting me in your life. I forgive you for all the unkept promises. I forgive you for everything and I hope you can forgive me. Not only did I feel this release in my soul I felt lighter and I knew I did the right thing. Do I want him around well yeah, part of me does but the other part not so much because I want to keep myself from feeling those emotions. I will not understand why people are so mean to me. I don't I will ever fully grasp that and I can't do anything to change their minds or their hearts. I can let them go and I can love them from afar but, in order to protect my heart from more damage I will cover it. I will let it heal. I hope you understand that God will always forgive you. He will always be there for you. But, there is going to be point when he's going to stop and my friend once the knocking stops you should be afraid. I want you to know that if there is someone who has done you wrong. I want you to message them and tell them you forgive them. If they don't answer back don't worry it will be okay. Forgiveness is powerful. It not only frees you but let's you experience much needed healing. Be blessed friends have a good day :) I want you to know something I am a realist. I have realistic expectations in life. But, there are times where I feel called to say things outside the norm and things I say sometimes gets a few raised brows so, I'm going to say what I feel about this whole book tour that's going to start this Saturday. To be real and honest with you I am not going to expect no more than 3-5 people to actually buy the book. But, I'm going to pray over each place I go and visit praying someone shows expecting a word from God. I want to come to these places prepared to speak and hear what they have to say to me. I want people to be touched. I want people to understand that this gift isn't just for me it's for you. I have a very unique calling where I get to interact with people. I speak words of life. I want people to know that when they show up and come to me that God has a word for you. I know, most will get one and not sure what to do with it. I don't always understand it myself. But, these words breathe life into you once again. I want to bring you hope. I want to bring you joy. I want you to know that all is not lost. You will get your blessing. I have waited a long time to speak in front of people. Yes, it's going to hard at times. But, I pray that no matter where I go that God will be the voice they hear. I want these people to hear encouragement. I want these people to know just how much God loves them. I'm praying doors will unlock. I'm praying people will flock. I want to be that much needed light in a dark world. I want to be that salt that goes deep into your wounds. I want to wake you up. I want to help you close your past and help you move forward. My calling isn't going to be easy but it's going to be well worth it. Be blessed. Just a friendly reminder Saturday may 17th I will be at Hastings in Lawton from 1-3 pm. I've figured out my calling in life. I've tried everything I could to get what I called a real job. A 9-5 paid every two weeks sort of thing. But, because of something or other I wouldn't get a job. I tried to ignore it for as long as I could but I couldn't deny the passion I held deep inside. So, to my dismay I gave up applying for countless jobs. And it hit me " what if I couldn't write something when it comes to me? I need this job. I will just write it later." I've said these words so many times that I started to believe that God would listen to me. I'm not sure why I love public speaking. I shouldn't because of the way I talk. But, I love talking in front of people. It's honestly my most favorite thing to do and with that said please, keep all your snide remarks to yourself. My heart has been broken for people. I've been through the fire. I've been reshaped and remolded into something more beautiful and better than I was before because I was somewhat willing to give up the things I loved most to get myself in better shape. I love people. I think people scare me. I don't do good with one on one's because it's easier for them to make fun of me. I'm pretty much use to the whole making fun of thing. But, back to the writing thing it was a way for me to get what I held inside out. I have a lot to say and I feel like if I can get it out on paper it would be easier to explain how I was feeling at the exact moment. I was given a gift. I wasn't too sure on how I would use it but, I'm slowly learning how it not only helps you but helps me. You see, when I write something it's my way of letting go and moving on from whatever it is that has been harboring in my soul. Letting go is easier said than done we all know that and because we need to forgive the person and move on from it. We cannot change them no matter how hard we try it will not ever happen. When I write something from the heart I part ways with it. I don't go back and read it again or speak about it. I've learned that if I want to heal I need to give it up or else the pain will eventually break me down to the point where I become helpless and need to give it up. It's been awhile since I've written in my blog I understand this I'm getting ready for a book tour. I firmly believe God opened all these doors. I do desperately wanted into Barnes and Nobel but God had other plans and for that I'm going to hastings. There are over 10 Hastings in Oklahoma. God knew I wouldn't be happy with just a few stores. He ken my heart and my heart longs to be free and I love to travel. God has provided. God gave me more than enough and for that I give him thanks because my heart longs to please him. Now, back to this whole writing career it wasn't my number one choice. I had high HIGH hopes on one day being a Judge. I know strange right, well my heart is in law. My mind thinks in a business mindset. I have a passion for people. I think with this book it gave me a second look at myself and within and I immediately started to disqualify myself because I don't belong in that place and so, I argued and to much avail God won( he will always win. Even when I think I won) God spoke so very clearly to me that my calling would be difficult and not many can accomplish it. I being a Sarah laughed it off. I mean let's be honest who's gonna listen to me? Thus starting the whole disqualification once again and my soul wouldn't have it. We all fought. I mean like yelling matches and temper tantrums to the max to the point you'd think he was arguing with a child. Yes, I'm adult. Yes, I'm still in shock. But, you see once I got myself out of the way he was able to get back in front of me. Okay, now you're still wondering about my unique calling well, if I told you it wouldn't be a mystery now would it? My heart for people will always out way my own problems. I am so excited for this new year and the people I will meet and get to talk to because I listened and I obeyed. I want you to know that if you are still trying to figure out what it is you are called to do stop pushing it. I knew who I was at the age of 17 don't be discouraged if you haven't figured it out Be blessed. For you are highly favored. For his grace and mercy are free flowing. He will always welcome you back with open arms. You are not too far from God. Today reminded me that words are extremely detrimental to a person's soul. Words are powerful. He made me feel insignificant. He made me feel like I wasn't good enough. He made me feel like crap. But, I want to tell you any man who tells you that are not good enough is a lie straight from satan himself. I already struggle with not being good enough. That devil knew it and he made it worse for me. I kept telling myself" why do I even bother? I keep getting the door slammed in my face. I might as well give up and get a real job. I'm clearly not good enough. He's told me I wasn't and I don't know anymore this whole book thing is just too much." But, then I realized something tonight. I am good enough. I am smart enough. I am talented enough. I am brave enough. You see, that devil thought he had me but I'm not going to let him get to me. God gave this gift. And if God thinks I'm good enough then heck yes, I will believe it. Do not believe the lies this world tells you. You are beautiful. You are brave. You are smart. You are capable. You are more than good enough. I promise that much to you. You see, God tells us we can do ALL things through him. But, a part from him we can do nothing. Satan thinks he got me but God reminded me " I created you. I gave you this as praise to me. I take pleasure in hearing your words. You have no idea just how beautiful they sound to me. Don't worry about others because they can't love you like me. Don't let their words affect you. Remember, I love you." So, I'm gonna tell you don't let their arrows pierce your heart. You have Amor so use it. Protect your heart because no else will. |
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