Blog will be up sometime tomorrow. I hope you are having a good evening.
Be blessed and night :)
Blog will be up sometime tomorrow. I hope you are having a good evening. Be blessed and night :)
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Hope you are having a good day. I am not sure what I am feeling at this moment. I'm sure it has a lot with my hearts desires. Yes, I am still waiting it sucks but I would rather wait on God than go ahead of him. My deepest desires are yet to come but I am reminded that God promised Sara a child years went by before the promise was fulfilled. I have to remember that God isn't neglecting me. He's silent for a reason. He's working on my behalf. And because he is silent doesn't mean he's ignoring me. I feel like this waiting makes me want to hear him that much more and wait on his direction in my life. Yes, I am waiting for these wings to be set free. My heart longs to soar and it longs to be awakened. I am feeling taunted by the enemy and he is making me feel inadequate at times. I know God is always near and I shouldn't fear. He will fulfill his promises in my life in his perfect timing. One thing I often feel like I don't get is this timing of his because a thousand years is one day for him. Now, do your best to wrap that around your head. You can't nor can I because we were not meant to understand him and his ways. Yes, he is silent and yes, it seems like he has forgotten about you but I promise you that he has not forgotten about you. He will fulfill his promises in due time. Now, with us being human and with that comes being impatient I know I am the worst at waiting on him. But I think " what will happen if I start and go before him"? " what will that do to me if I push and push"? " I don't want to keep waiting but seriously though God something has got to give and let something happen please" I'm hoping I'm not the only one who wants to run ahead of him. Maybe, there are times where he is waiting on us to move. Don't worry so much because that's not going to help anyone especially you. So, my friend if you are reading this know that you are not alone in this waiting game. I have been waiting for a few years. But, I will see the promise when it's time for me. Wait on The Lord and he will lift you up when you least expect it. He is the only one who can promote you. Be blessed friends. Hello, sorry for the delay of the blog. I was going to post one yesterday but decided not to but, I have been looking for a job these past few weeks. I know I have a job as a writer. I know that I have everything I need. But, tonight on my way home from dinner I asked to have a financial breakthrough because I need a sense of pride. I am afraid of people. I am not sure why but as of late I have become scared to talk and voice myself. I shouldn't be afraid to be me. I shouldn't let fear cripple me and hold me back from achieving greatness. I know it sounds silly to some but I am so insecure it sucks. I blame myself for keep myself in hiding. I want my life back. I want to talk to people. Yes, I get people will talk about me and I can't help that I just have to ignore it and keep moving forward. You know having this problem makes me scared to be who I am called to be and with that I have a real issue with it. I write a lot. I write my heart out. I love doing it. I am praying I get back out in the work force soon because I miss it. I just want to say this if you are struggling with yourself and you are feeling insecure please know that you are loved. You were made for a purpose. You have a life that's worth living. In his death he brought forth life eternally. So, we shouldn't be ashamed of living with reckless abandonment. He created us to be whole in him. He is the only one who can pick up our broken pieces and put them back together. Yes, I will always struggle with my self esteem but, I know I am beautiful. I know I am loved. I know I was created to fulfill his will plan and purpose for my life. I may not always understand his ways but I will trust that he knows what he is doing. If you are struggling know that you are alone. Chase God he will always be there for you. I hope you have a good night. You wanna know something I'm kind of fed up with people. I have learned a lot of things about people and who I can trust with my dreams. I honestly can't tell you the last time people were genuinely truthful. I mean yeah we all lie but to purposefully withhold the truth is just unethical. I can pretty much handle anything but I just can't handle liars cheaters and people who are willing to make you question their character. I am still writing books. I haven't stopped. I've actually written a few the past few months. I've written a second book in a week. I haven't turned it in because I'm just I have no money and it sucks. It's going to cost 990 for putting my second book out to the public. If God wants me to be an author he has got to help me come up with the money. I give my money problems to him because well he's the Creator and he pretty much owns everything. I've always worked. I've always had a job. But I have been applying and nothing seems to be opening up for me. I hate that he has to support us both. I hate that he carries that burden. It bothers me that I can't help lighten the load. Do I like staying home with dogs and a cat to talk to? It has it's days. But, truthfully I want to work and bring money into this house. I'm praying for financial breakthrough not only for me but for those who are struggling like me. For those who are worried about not having enough money I want to say to you listen up because this year it will happen. We have to keep the faith and trust his plan for our lives. I've been praying hard. I've been waiting for what seems like forever for these walls to be broken. I just wanna run free. I want to break free. I am not willing to give up. I've come this far to stop fighting. I will see it happen. The promises that were given to me will happen. I have to wait on his timing. I dare not rush it. Today I realized that I have a gift and I want to share it with you. I want to bless you with the gifts I have been given. I don't think I'm better than you. I don't think I'm smarter than you. I'm doing what I'm told. I want you to know that when you read this I pray that you see how valuable you are and that you understand that we all have gifts and talents. I myself cannot sing. I don't have a loud enough voice. But, my mother can and my friends can my brothers are different Avery has this amazing eye for drawing so do my cousins. I am amazed at their talents. I can't draw. Afton has an amazing gift for mathematics. He's incredibly smart. Jessica can look at something and make it. I'm jealous of their smarts. Jennifer is smart too. I have a different kind talent. I have a different kind of passion. I love helping people. I may not have the money but I will do whatever it takes to help you out. We all have different gifts and talents. I am a better writer. It's how I get my feelings out. What stirs your heart? What makes you upset? What breaks it? These are clues to your calling. I hope you have a beautiful Friday. What an empty life it must be without God. One could only imagine the never ending suffering one endures. Your life is short. You are a mist. You are here only for a short time. I couldn't imagine my life without his will plan and purpose in my life. I'd fall apart. This life is meaningless without God in it. Oh how precious this life we live. We are spiritual beings living a human life. We were designed to live forever. But, our flesh will fade and will die. We cannot understand life nor can we wrap our heads around the bad stuff. I do know that without a loving God life is dull and we can never fill the void in our hearts. This life will pass. But our souls live on forever. Spring is upon us friends! The weather is beautiful. Hope everyone is doing well this evening. I've been dealing with the stomach bug as of late. Praying I feel better soon I hate dealing with the stomach bug. I'm going to do a book gathering if you want to call it that I'm looking for help and looking for people who will be willing to support me through this journey. I am asking for prayer and I'm seeking wisdom right now if you want to talk to me message me anytime and we can talk pray or just anything really look forward to hearing from you. Thanks, Nicole :) Apparently my blogs are not posting anymore so, if you want to you can follow me on Facebook :) This world has gone mad. I'm not sure how I feel towards people who kill children. There must be something wrong with them spiritually for them to kill a child. The bible clearly states that satan hates the seed. That seed is our children. Or anything else blessed by God. But, for right now it's about the children. People find it sickening that others can abduct and kidnap children and do horrific things to them but, you know it brings me back to the whole point Satan wants to steal, kill and destroy every good thing in your life. He not only wants to take it he wants to ruin it and he wants to ruin you. If he can get you away from God's protection then he's going to and he will do whatever it takes to make sure you don't go back. Children are a beautiful blessing from God. They carry on our heritage and our legacy. Children need to be reminded that they are loved and that they are protected. I don't have kids yet, but I pray a hedge of protection around my brothers and my sisters and their kids. I'm telling you what though that devil hates it. He knows that he can't touch what is being watched and protected. I pray over my future children. I pray that they know God from an early age. I pray that God wraps himself around them when they are out and about with their friends. I pray that God will shield them from harm. That they get home safely from school and other activities. It's sad that it takes all of this to get our attention. I hope we get it. I truly hope we get it. Because it's moments like this that makes a praying parent pray harder. Hope you have a blessed day. |
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