Do you believe that he is who he says he is? Do you believe that he can turn your situation around? Do you believe that he is more than able to do far beyond our expectations? Do you believe that he is Healer? Do you believe that he is a provider? Do you believe that he is a shelter for you to run to when the world seems to be after you? Do you believe that he can be all you need? Do you believe that there is nothing he can't do? Do you believe that he is the only way to heaven? Do you believe that he is who he says he is? His name is Jesus. He is King. He is healer. He is sovereign. He is savior. He is love. He is kindness. He is everything you are not. His ways are higher than our ways. He is protection. He is peace. He is, was and will forever be. Because he gave we give our hearts back to him. He is the seed protector. He is the author and the finisher of our faith. He is, was and will forever be. You know that God wants your heart. He will do whatever it takes to get it. You do not own your life. You do not own anything. You were given those things because he trusts you enough to tend to it on a daily biases. He is someone who never changes his mind. He is never fickle. He is never worried. He is never depressed. He is never sick. He became our sickness. He became our diseases. He became our sins. He carried it with him on the cross. It died with him. Because he carried it all. You are free. You get to be free and enjoy the freedom of salvation grace and mercy that is freely given out to us. Love is powerful. I wish you could understand just how much he loves you. Let him take your broken heart and mend it back together. Lay your head down at his feet you restless soul. You have no idea the passion he has for you. He will not give up until you are finally his. He will seek you out. He will call for you. He will come to you. Do you get it? He doesn't want to hurt you. No! He wants to help you. He longs for you. He searches high and low for you. He wants you back in his arms of safety. Let him call your name. For you are restless, weary and broken. Do not fight it. Do not ignore him do not run from him. He's a jealous God. His love is as strong as death. I'm not kidding. That pull is real. You've ignored it long enough. It's time to stop fighting it. Make him your King. Make him your Lord and savior I promise he won't disappoint.
I'm not upset if people don't like me. I'm not going to be sad if you can't handle my conversations. I mention God a lot only due to the fact that he's done far more than I could ever imagine. I know I'm a lot to take in at once I get that but, if you're going to sit on your butt and fuss about everything going wrong and you don't have the guts to stand up for yourself and change then I'm not going to feel sorry for you. I have a zero tolerance for stupidity. I do not feel sorry for people who make stupid mistakes. I get it that crap happens but there's a little thing called common sense. It seems to me that hardly anyone uses their brain nowadays. So, if you don't feel like getting up and being motivated I will help give you the kick in the pants that you need. I am seriously annoyed with the gay community. I am seriously fed up with Christians laying down and taking it. Uh no get up off your back and fight for what is right. I am fed up with people caving in because they are afraid of offending people. Shut up already please just stop talking. Gays should not get the same rights as hetro couples. If I make you mad. Go cry a river and build a bridge to help you get over it. I'm tired of it. People are so fickle. People are so stupid at times. I'm over it. I'm over being nice because I need to protect an image. Uh no, if you are offended by what I say then I must be doing something right. Drama is for high school. This world has her panties in a wad.Get over it. Suck it up and move on. I'm just tired of people and their stupid rants because they can't have their way. You are not a baby so, please grow up and move on. Thank you that is all. I think Robert was onto something when we were talking about bad luck. Yes, there are things you can't control like weather. But, think about it if you keep having that feeling the "universe is against you" then it's probably a sign that something isn't right. These are warning signs to help you avoid major heartache in the end. But, what do I know? I'm just being real with you here and in all honesty if you feel like you are a circle and you feel like someone is shoving a square in your circle it's not going to work. Another way of saying this Robert and I fit together like two perfectly matched puzzle pieces. If you are trying to match a corner with a middle it's not going to work. They are both different and go in different places. Puzzles are meant to have a flow to them. If you're too busy forcing a fit with someone then odds are it's not meant to be trust me, I was with someone I kept forcing it to happen. It didn't ever work. It eventually ended because of heartache. I wish we could understand that love isn't suppose to be complicated. People make it complicated with their drama. So, if you feel like you're forcing something to happen and nothing seems to be working out for you then rest assured that it's a sign. Things are meant to flow together. The seasons flow together naturally like summer to fall to winter. I'm sure you get the point. I hope you have a great Christmas and remember if you're struggling to piece things together stop and think if it's meant to be then it will flow naturally and it will not be complicated. I'm sure I'm just rambling on but take it for what it's worth. Merry Christmas. For those who are struggling with sickness or diseases I hope you know that there are people who love and care about you. Cancer has taken loved ones. Many will not be the same for they left behind family and friends left with grief. Those who have past away recently rest in peace. To the family that is left behind know that there is a God who specializes in grief. He is always here to be that shoulder to cry on or the hand to hold. He's the only one who can help you through these trying times. He is the Prince of peace. He will surround you with his love. Let him show you just how much he loves and cares for you. Having to deal with death around Christmas time isn't something we want to deal with and it's hard losing someone but this season it makes it harder. They are never forgotten. But, it's okay to remember them and think of the good times together. Grief is hard alone. Make sure you are surrounded by family and a pastor who can help give you Godly advice. I know I talk a lot about God's love. It's only because it's always going to be there for you no matter what happens. His love came to this earth. This love came to show us that there is real hope. There is no other way but through him. If you haven't experienced his love just open yourself up to it. I think you'll get it after you experience it. Love is more than a word. It's a verb. It's a noun. It's pure. It's holy. It's real. It's honest. It's painful. It's never failing. I hope you understand that this love is going to here for you no matter what and because of this love it's up to us if we want it. I want you know that death isn't the end. You will see them again. I just have to say this because of the outrage against a&e for what they did why don't you think of it as a wake up call? Often times when things like this happen it shows the true nature of this world. Will this show continue on? I hope it doesn't. I hope the family doesn't continue doing it. People are so quick to point the finger. They purposely asked him knowing good and well what his answer was going to be but, they turned on him. I'm writing this to tell you that yes, there is evil in the world and though it may seem like it's winning it's not because good always wins. The bible talks about this stuff. This isn't new this what we are all upset over isn't new. It's been done before years and years ago. Consider the fact that in these last days we need to be even more aware of what is happening. You can be upset if you want to but, it's not going to do any good. To know that people are so afraid to offend someone is sad. I pity them. They feel the need to drag other people with them in their misery. You should not be ashamed of the gospel. You should not run and hide. You should not abandon the one truth is this world. I, it took me a long time to figure out that I don't care if I offend you. I don't care if I hurt your feelings with the truth. I don't care. Some call me too harsh but if I'm not then who is? People need a wake up call and well, you got it. We are in the last days. I can feel it. I'm not worried. I get to go back home. I've watched this place fall further and further away from God. I've seen the pain. I've heard the cries. I've sat back and watched as you murder each other. I've sat back and watched as you sleep with your boss. I've sat back and watched as the women get raped. I've sat back and watched as you kill unborn children. I've sat back as you lie, cheat and destroy your neighbor's property. I've watched it all. I've seen the weak. I've seen the powerful. I've seen hate. I've seen love. I've watched it all. You should know that yes, God is love, joy, peace and everything good. What you need to know is just how jealous he truly is and how his love for us is stronger than death. His pull on our hearts is hard. He wants us away from all that sin and hurt. It is not God's will that people parish. We were created to live forever. We have a longing in our hearts and we try to fill that void. You can't ever fill it. That hole in your heart was designed to be fulfilled by God. I know I'm hitting you in the face with this and good. I will write more later but for now just know that yes, there weapons and yes they laid traps but, he will send his angels to guard you least you stumble and fall. No one can fully comprehend the love of God. His ways are far above ours. He sets himself high above the earth. Who can fully understand his ways? His love is deep. His way is narrow. His understanding is far greater than our own. Who can fully understand his ways? My heart cries out from this great love. I've seen it firsthand. I've tasted it. I've felt it. My heart is always seeking him out. Who can fully understand his ways? His love is wide. His love forgets our sins. His love erases our deepest regrets. His love changes us from within. His love feeds my soul. Who can fully understand his ways? My body is weak. My mind racing. My hands and nails cling to the dirt. I don't want to move from this place. You do something in me that I can't explain. My eyes burn. My throat closes up as I long for more of you. My belly aches for the food you give. I can't express this longing any other way. You take me to a place where no one can find me. I feel your warmth over my body. I feel your arms. I hear your voice so clear it rings in my ear. You set me up as it's you I cling to my face stained with tears as you look at me. You wipe my face clean as you look me over. I begin to stammer. I begin to explain myself as you smile. " it's okay, I know." He continues to clean me off. I'm a mess. Why is he cleaning me off? I fight him off as I look myself over as I find a cloth and clean myself off. He stands there wondering what I'm doing as he stops me. " you do not need to clean yourself to come to me. I will clean you. I will make you white as snow. Let me clean you off. I don't mind." He grabs me as he continues to clean me off. Moments later I'm cleaner and brighter. I have a glow about me again. He finishes and looks me over. I smile as he spoke again" You don't need to worry. I don't expect you to be perfect. There's only one and it's me. You don't worry about making me upset about cleaning you off. I don't mind it my child." His words warmed my heart. I could feel it deep inside of me. He held me close to him. He kissed my head and smiled. I ask you dear reader can you fully understand the love of God? His love is real. His love makes us whole. He is the only love that will never leave us or forsake us. Do you know that this love is for you? This love can hold us on our darkest of nights. This love can shelter us from the raging winds and rain. This love, this love my friends is something you can't buy. I want you to know that I write from experience. This love gives and it's the only one that can save. This love is not from man. No, this love is far greater, deeper and wider than we can ever fathom. Who can fully understand his ways? Our praises confuse the enemy. He made our pain to destroy us from the inside out but, he forgot that when we are weak God is at his strongest. When we pray and thank God in the midst of our storms the enemy is left confused so, he tries to pill up more crap. But, see here again he forgets there is a God who will stand in his way and block him from us. He stands tall like a mighty pillar holding a sturdy structure. God's strength cannot be measured. The enemy loves to see us in pain. He loves to hear us cry. He's a sick and twisted being. But, when all hell seems to break lose remember that we serve a Mighty God who is always there to protect his children. I hope you stay encouraged. And remind yourself daily of the benefits that come with trusting and believing in him. I know this is a lot but, know when the storms rage and all you see is rain remember that it cannot last long because the sun has no choice but to shine. I don't reach out to a lot of people. But, when I do decide to reach out I don't like it being slapped away. I am not to wait around for people to realize I only wanted their time. I'm not into wasting mine or yours so, I do what I can to make sure that you know that if you need something I'm here but not if you are going to continually ignore me. I know when to leave. I don't like giving up. But there comes a point when you have to take a step back and move on with your life. What type of songs get you happy? What type of songs get you to dance? Music is to make you move your feet. Music speaks when words fail to but, music can be instrumental only or with words to tell a story. I love all kinds of music. Music isn't bad. There are different types of music you can listen to but I'm more of the John Mayer, Colby , adel type when I want to chill out and relax. Their voices are soothing. But, if I'm feeling like sugary pop I turn to Ariana, Mariah, Katy, Jessica and Christiana. But, if I'm feeling like country I pick carrie, miranda, Blake, zac brown band, Eli young band, Kenny, George lady A rascal flats. I'm hardly in the mood for rap but I pick T.I. Or eminem yes, yes I like rap. Heavy metal no clue I don't want a headache I like it when I'm in the mood. But, you get my point. Music is suppose to move you. It's suppose to change you. I love praise and worship music. The list is far to long to even begin to list. So, with that have a good night. Oh and jazz music is a gas! I just wanna say that I know first hand of the healing power of God. I know firsthand just how great he makes me feel. I don't understand why we see others fully healed and others left to suffer. But, I know that with these battles come strong suits of armor. He is a healer. He is a provider. I don't know anything less. He has healed me from within and I have no clue how to explain it other than God did it. He uses the weak to shame the powerful. When we are at our weakest he is at his strongest. I wanted to say that when I was having my gallbladder pain. I thought I was going to die. I wanted to die hoping the pain would stop. It was the worst pain I felt in my life. It went on for a year how I managed to make it is beyond me. And for people to say I don't know pain. I seriously beg to differ. I found it funny that people thought I was making it up. I don't enjoy suffering my friend. I don't think you should enjoy it either. If it's all you've ever known. I want to show you just how powerful my God is and just how great his powers are because of him I am healed. I had surgery. It was the best day of my life. But, the week of my surgery. I felt so much pain. I cried out. And in my weakness he became so strong and something happened inside of my body. I had the best sleep of my life. I did not once wake up. It happened for that entire week up to my surgery. I slept the night through and if you have ever experienced gallbladder pain then you know what a big deal this was because the attacks happen but it so bad that everything I ate or drank would cause on. I got tired of stupid Dr's and their "theories" of my pain. But, that Wednesday afternoon my body stopped and I felt like he wrapped his arms tightly around me and laid me to rest. I didn't fight it. I was so weak I didn't fight him. He kept my body safe. He knew what I needed. He became my Healer. He became my protector. He stood watch over me as I slept and he made sure no one touched me. I tell you all of this to say that God is so very real. His healing can be yours if you want it. The problem was with me I would rather take my pain killers and ignore him. I thought he didn't care. I got so mad at him. I told him to leave and not come back. But, because he could see through my anger he planted his feet and stood his ground with me. He and I went round and round until I gave up. He's stronger. He's wiser. He's better than I am. He looked at me in his " I'm not moving so, give it up" look. I've seen this look many times. When he shook the ground I knew he was serious. I don't usually tell him no. But, I caved in after months of fighting him. Man, he was so happy he was about to do something to me to make me remind myself just how powerful he truly was I suppose I'm just that stubborn. But, no fire here for me. I listened after many angels warned me. I seriously was testing my boundaries all because I was too mad to care. My point in this learn from me. I'm surprised he let me live. I'm so glad he didn't take me out when I pushed him to his limit. I was very angry. But, I hope you understand that God is who he says he is and that if he promised you something he will give it you in due time. I'm still trying to understand it. I just want you to understand that we serve a Mighty God. Who is not one to be tested. He is far too powerful for us humans. He is far too wise to be fooled. He is, was and will forever be. I hope you see that through pain God brings something new to us. Life is painful. The good, the bad, the ugly and the painful. If God didn't care about us being in pain he wouldn't have sent his son. He knew firsthand the pain of seeing your child is pain. He knew that Jesus was the only way to bridge that gap. He watched as his beautiful son became sin nailed to a cross. It was a reminder that even your nastiest of sins. Your most painful moments in life were once experienced on a cross. You do not have to clean yourself up to go to him. He wants you as you are he does not care that you are the dirtiest, the messiest, the ugliest sinner out there why, because love made a way for us to come to him as we are and he will make us whole and new again. I hope you have a beautiful day friends. This healer is waiting to make you whole again. Be blessed.
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