I'm up. I couldn't shake the whole " a bad attitude corrupts good character." It's something that is truly bothering me.
I can't for the life of me understand why I'm up this early, but He has a plan because I've been up for about an hour now trying to understand this whole character thing.
I've been in permerica and I've been in Mary Kay. Both of these organizations have hateful people in them. The deeper I got. The more they revealed their ugly head. It wasn't pretty.
I can't shake it off. I can't push past it. I don't claim to know everything. I don't want to know everything, but I know enough to speak up and out against people.
I'm tired of half full christians trying to live a full life. You can't teach people when you, yourself are not teachable. You can't reach other people if you have not been through it.
When I heard of primerica I liked it. I liked what they stood for and it caught my attention unlike Mary Kay, they don't sell make up just life insurance and security for life.
I've had it with people who can't listen. I've tried to warn over and over, but no one listens. I'm tired of trying to flag you down and warning you of danger ahead. I'm about to give up and walk away.
What's the point? If you're not going to listen then why am I even here? When you rebuke wise counsel that falls back on you, not me.
I've done my job. It's up to you to see the signs we have been pointing out to you. Do NOT get mad when you crash. You did it yourself. You only have yourself to blame. It's no one else's fault that you didn't listen and pay attention.
One of my biggest pet peeves has to be people not paying attention. It drives me nuts!!! I'm not kidding. Everything in life would be much better if we just shut up and listen.
Primerica, was good, but it wasn't who I was no one stood up for me. This married guy tried to have an affair with me. I felt bad for his wife. She was sweet and a good friend so I thought, but you know what not one person from that company stood up for me.
He tried to show public affection. It was weird. In private he tried even harder. I made sure he knew that I wasn't going to entertain those thoughts. He was mad. It's not my fault though they somehow made it my fault and pushed me out.
I'm seriously trying to wrap my head about what these people do. It wasn't something I wanted to be apart of any longer.
You can attack me. You can make fun of me, but don't you dare come after my character. I pride myself on integrity. I pride myself on being nice to people.
They still don't get it. I never got it. I never understood what his wife saw in him. People believed him over me. I suppose it's because he was way more known than I was though it wasn't fair but I understood it.
Now, something similar like this happened to me in Mary Kay. I was with this lady who was a red jacket. I was going with her to an appointment/make over. I had no problem with it. I like learning in any way I can.
So, back to this makeover thing, we get there things going good. I help get things ready. I ask where the bathroom was and I walked out and then I walked out to get my charger out of this woman's car( the I rode with to the makeover)
I plug my phone in to the kitchen outlet and walk back in to where the ladies were and in all honesty this part will make you mad too, so, brace yourself for this mess.
I walk back in the woman out loud accuses me of stealing her charger and plug in. Once again no one stood up for me. I said " uh no, I got it from so and so's car." She still didn't believe me.
This woman didn't let me take my charger until she went to go find her own plugged into her bedroom or kid's bedroom. I walked outside. I was so mad and hurt.
No one stood up for me. No one apologized. I couldn't understand it. Here I was minding my own business and they attack my character once again.
Fast forward to last year in the summer I got a job at a daycare and I swear they had it out for me since day one. I'm not kidding.
I was accused of stuff that happened when I wasn't there. I was in my car on my way home. I was accused of kicking a child. I also got accused of pushing and shoving a child. Uh how can I do something when I'm not anywhere near the child? Yeah, it baffled me too.
Now, you're probably wondering why I told you that, but if you caught on to my people attacking my character then you'll understand.
I never understood why people did this to me. It bothers me. Now, this guy from permerica thought he was hot snot a and I hate to break it to you sir, you are not. I am not hot snot either.
When you think you're better than wise counsel then you my friend need to sit back and reevaluate yourself. I'm tired of people attacking me for no reason.
I, for one detest people who misuse bible verses and just a little fyi jesus wasn't the world's best recruiter. He was a prime example of a servant.
In order to be a leader you must learn to serve others around you. I cannot stress this enough. You may be making millions, but if you haven't gotten your hands dirty by helping other people then you are not a true leader.
Primerica pushes people. They think they are always right and that they are the better way. I hate to break it to you guys, but you're only as good as your weakest link.
I'm not in anyway attacking these companies. You need to understand something you cannot go around bashing my character. You cannot continue to ignore the facts.
I don't understand why no one stood up for me. I'll never understand it, but please for the love of all things acknowledge that you screwed up.
I've reached out to people. I've tried asking for their help, but I got nothing. I want you to open your eyes. I say what I'm told to say and if you can't wrap your head around then you can leave, but just know that He will find you. And He will confront you. You can't out run God.
You better watch how you address Me You better treat Me with a little bit more respect than what you give Me. I'm not going to put up with it.
You better watch it. I am a good God. Don't you dare confuse me with the devil. I am kind. I have a good reputation. I am not a liar. I am faithful. I keep my promises.
I hope you get where I'm coming from so, when you read this know this, people trust me. I have pastors, and other God fearing people talk to me and ask for my advice. I don't give you advice God does! He speaks through me. I'm sorry you can't get it.
God is NOT a liar. He is faithful and true. His word can be trusted. I hope you understand what I'm saying. Have a good day. Be blessed.