Where was I this last time? I've forgotten what it felt like to be sitting here actually listening to what You had to say. It's been so long since I remembered that I'm going to be okay. My whole body hurts. My whole life has been repeats of how You came through for me. Many will not get it and that's okay too! The select few that do get it and understand it are able to relate to what I'm feeling at this very moment. I've exhausted all my means. I didn't even think that was possible, but after my surgery and after sleeping most of my days away. I finally am able to understand why I went through this process. I may not like the not washing my hair until after he pulls all that stuff out of my ear. I may not like taking more pills, but God, You have been there every single step of the way. This little annoyance has given me the best way of gaining more earring. I know my words are sometimes a jumbled mess and that's okay. I often can't find the words to express my heart towards You. I sometimes find it frustrating to let it all out. I am in pain. The pain is temporary yes, but at the same time I hate how I feel having to take pain medicine because the pain is so bad. I do however want to thank You for holding my hand. I want to thank You for not ever leaving my side even when it got hard. I want to thank You for helping me figure this mess out and for helping me do this the right way. I know You have shown Your faithfulness throughout this process. You gave me the Word and we stuck to it! Great is Thy faithfulness! Even when it looked like it wasn't going to happen and when I'm freaking out, You remained calm. You kept my mind calm. You became the strong anchor I needed. You have given me such a hope and a peace about all of this and You have guided us to this place. A place of restoration. A place of healing. A place of peace that surpasses all understanding. A hiding place right under Your wings of safety. I loved the encouragement You gave me. I love the thoughts of "it's almost over." That helped make it better. This is almost over and when this packing comes out of my ear on Thursday, I may be able to hear better. I may be able to hear things I couldn't before and that will be incredible. I may not have it all together, I may not have it all figured out, but You do. You have foreseen this day. You have given me such grace and mercy to do this and I am overwhelmed by You. I am forever grateful and forever in Your debt.