Well, my ear problems continue and Thursday I went to the dr yet again with my ear a mess. My dr took another swab of my ear and cleaned it out again. They both were equally painful. I got more antibiotics (yay-.-) I am on cipiro and Friday I was okay. It was two full doses of it. I had a hard time sleeping Friday night. I went to bed around 2:30 or so and I heard a slight pop in my ear. It was okay until it became extremely painful. I didn't realize it until much later that it was bloody. I paid no attention to the times I put new cotton balls in my ear. I just threw them away without even looking and after I woke up I was so dizzy that it felt like the house was literally spinning around and around. It took me an hour just to get out of bed. I slowly got up and held onto the wall. I used the wall as support. I was full on hugging the wall as I slowly walked to the bathroom to pee and brush my teeth. It was a doozy to both. I just have to say that I am so thankful for Robert. I mean the man helped me and held me up and walked with me to the couch to sit me down. I became so nauseated that I barely made it to couch. He got me breakfast from our favorite diner downtown. I wasted no time eating. You'd think I was starving because I ate everything on my plate. I don't normally do that at all. It wasn't until a few minutes later he told me I was rubbing his chair (I don't remember that, but whatever:/) he helped me get up and within moments I was rushing to the trash can and I hurt myself by throwing up and it came it so forcefully it hurt so bad. So, he helped me get back into the bed and I laid down for another hour or so while he fixed the toilet in our bathroom. I had the pillows up and laid face down because that was the only spot I felt comfortable in and it didn't make me dizzy. So, when he got done with all that I made my way back into the living room to sit. I had more food. I swear if I'm not eating I'm trying to throw up. I had to have help taking a bath. I couldn't stand up to shower. This man helped me wash my hair and rinse it out. I'm telling you, I married an incredible man. I am so blessed. The way he went out of his way to help me and to make sure I didn't fall over just makes my heart happy. I was so glad that he went to Walmart to get some ice cream. It helped me out a lot. It is lactose free and vegan. It made my body feel so good. I didn't eat but a very small portion, but still it was delicious. We made hamburgers for dinner and it was yummy. I have to eat something or else I get violently ill. This medicine is kicking my rear! I have a scan on Thursday to see where exactly the infection is located in my bones. I am not made. I'm not going to blame God for this mess. It's life. I'm not going to question why or how or any of that because it will not do me any good. I will however be patient because my pains are almost over. I'm not dying. I'm not in severe pain. I have medicine for the pain to make it tolerable. This is more of an annoyance per say and yes, I am so sick and in pain, but it could be way worse like before! I know God is still there. I know God is still good and kind and in control. No, God didn't go back on His word. I know what God said to me and no, the devil will not steal my joy. It's funny though because he sure is reaching for something that isn't there! I know what was promised to me. I know that I could be upset and mad at the things going on, but I'm not and here's why because I know God has done it before so, that gives me hope because I know He will do it again! I hope you understand what I just said to you. If God did it before He will do it again. I'm here to tell you that there is nothing too hard for God. There isn't anything He can't do. Nothing and I do mean nothing is impossible for God. I know life is unfair. I get it, but my goodness people, be grateful that it isn't way worse than it is! Have a grateful heart instead of a hateful heart. You cannot control life. I can't control my situation, but I have my faith. I have my undying hope that God can do the impossible. You see, this surgery started off as a yay it's going to be a great thing for me to okay, Krystle we have to get this done a lot sooner because it's dire and I may have to go into the bones and clean it out and put the graft in along with a tube. I have had more trouble with my right ear these past few months than I have had in the last eight years since my surgery. I'm not mad at it. I mean, I could be, but what will that solve? I trust God wholeheartedly. This surgery is supposed to fix my hearing and it would be the last ear surgery I would ever have in my life well, the enemy had other plans. What the enemy meant for evil God turns it around for my good and my benefit. The Bible says in Romans 8:28 “We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.”
AMPC. That's the truth and I'm sticking to it. You can't tell me anything else. I won't hear anything else. I know what my bible says and I know what my God says and I'm clinging to the everlasting arm. I'm going to be okay. I just have to hold on a little while longer. God didn't bring me this far to leave me. No, He brought me to show me that He is all I will ever want and need. I have complete faith in Him and His ability to do what is best for me and my life. I want you to know that yes, I am in pain at times and yes, it's bothersome, but God will see me through it. I hope that you find encouragement in these words. I hope that you don't lose heart in this fight. The Bible also says stand firm that's it. Stand there and let God fight the battles for you. For the battle is not yours, the Lord's!
AMPC. That's the truth and I'm sticking to it. You can't tell me anything else. I won't hear anything else. I know what my bible says and I know what my God says and I'm clinging to the everlasting arm. I'm going to be okay. I just have to hold on a little while longer. God didn't bring me this far to leave me. No, He brought me to show me that He is all I will ever want and need. I have complete faith in Him and His ability to do what is best for me and my life. I want you to know that yes, I am in pain at times and yes, it's bothersome, but God will see me through it. I hope that you find encouragement in these words. I hope that you don't lose heart in this fight. The Bible also says stand firm that's it. Stand there and let God fight the battles for you. For the battle is not yours, the Lord's!