I haven't written in a week and I feel like I haven't done anything worth writing about but, with that said I can say that my efforts are not vain.
I feel out of my element. It's like I haven't exercised in a week. My heart has a lot to say my but my body kept me busy.
Why is it that we are too busy for God? Since when do we have too much going on for him? I may be busy but my hearts desire is to be alone with him.
I am done with distractions. I am done with my thoughts interrupting our conversations.
I write. I feel better after I say what needs to be said. Today hit me hard only because I know what lies ahead.
Am I truly ready for this? I know I didn't ask for it. He must have a plan. I know it. I ask for directions. He says "wait" I roll my eyes and sigh. Only due to the fact I've heard this a million times.
He has blocked my vision. He has deafened my ears. He clouds my thoughts. Yet, I feel this fire burning deep inside. A longing I can't explain. No, I'm not going to complain.
He knows what is best. He knows that I need to trust . He gladly takes my burden. And I know in him I can rest.
He gives me hope. He gives me peace. He gives me undeniable love. He gives me his best. He knows I need it.
Writing out how I feel is only a small portion of what I do. I can talk for hours about all the good things he has done for me and my family.
I want you to know that this book will test my faith in a new way. I will have to trust when I don't feel like it. But, I know just how good he is because he is always faithful. Because I know just how great he truly is and because I know that I can find all I need him; my heart can hold fast to his undying love.
I never have to question his love. Nor do I have to worry about him not providing for me. Because in scripture tells me "And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."(Philippians 4:19 NKJV)
So, if your faith is being tested just know he is wanting to be trusted.
This is something important we need to comprehend. Even though we will not get it. But, don't trust in a crises. He's not just a rescue boat. He's a boat you ride out the storms in and he will keep you save.
He provides shelter. He provides peace.
I know this blog is all over the place. But, this blog is for someone not sure for who but, if you are reading this know the choice is firmly up to you.
No one can make it for you. You have to open your mouth and ask if you don't then you are missing out.
Do not take it lightly because he doesn't.
But, I feel like this road is meant for me to take. I don't know if I am ready for all of this but I trust and lean on him. For I know he will get me through it.
So, like I said this a jumble of words. I hope you are blessed and sweetest of dreams!
Nicole :)