Hello!! How is your day going? It's Monday! It's going to be a great week. I have been sleeping and resting these past few days. I had surgery on Wednesday. It was an odd experience. I hate waking up right after the procedure. I hate the nauseous feelings that come and go and don't get me started on the taste. It's been awhile since I've had surgery. I will say this though that I thought it wouldn't work because last time it didn't. We knew it didn't within the first week when the patch came off within the healing process. It was sad. I don't think that's the case this time around. It will fully heal within 3-4 weeks. I am noticing a difference. I am hearing hums I haven't heard before and that's exciting! I don't mind loud noises. I have had pain and weird throbbing in my ear and I know that's completely normal. I have made it necessary to write my journey. I have made it my mission for you to see and understand God's incredible faithfulness. I have stressed the point that God can heal us. I am living proof that God can do the impossible. You are living proof that miracles happen. I'm tired of people not being able to express their love and joy for God. I will not be silenced. You can try, but you will fail. The Word of God stands the test of time. It lasts generations to generation. It rolls over into the next heart. It's so grand and splendorous that it can't be contained. It bursts out the seams. It breaks the walls down of every stronghold. It crushes the foundations of kingdoms past, present, and future. It shakes us to the core. For the Word of God is eternal. So, you're gonna have to let me have a praise break every now and again. You're gonna have to let me cut loose from time to time because He is worthy to be praised! My soul can't contain Him. My heart can't carry the weight of His name (throne room reference) nor can my body hold Him up. I am created by God for God. Every single test and trail I have ever faced has been to test my faith in ways I could not ever imagine. I am the product of my environment. I long to be in the presence of the the Most High God. It's what I was designed for and who I was meant to be. I can't fathom it. I don't want to! I know that h even is going to be incredible! I will have a perfect body. I will hear every single thing. I don't want perfection. I want completion. I want my mind to know that this surgery worked. God has fulfilled His promises to me. It may have looked like it wasn't going to be possible, but I stood on the Words that were given to me. I clung to Him in ways I haven't ever clung to Him before and it teaches me that God cares. He sees me in all my mess and He shows me that He stills cares for me. So, no, I'm not going to stop my joy. I've been through too much to let it all go now. I've come too far to stop. I understand that my hearing isn't going to be 80% and that's fine. I do know that I will take what I can get and if I can go from 23-25% to 45-50% that's a miracle in itself! Having that hole covered is just the beginning for me. I can now have a hearing aid in that ear once it is completely healed. My God nonsense isn't ever going to stop. God will do another miracle for me by giving me a child. If you know anything about my health you will know that it's ill advised. I got cleared to have a kid. I want you to understand what that means for me. It means that I can bring a baby to term without having any complications. I will be a high risk pregnancy and that's okay. I will have specialists watching me throughout the entire process. I laughed because this whole time all we wanted to do was start a family. I'm not kidding. We started trying for a family and all the sudden my ear started acting up. It was the strangest thing. I was completely fine. I haven't been sick. And then bam! An annoying ear infection that took months (not kidding here either) and now after having surgery it will be completely fixed for good. God has made incredible promises to me throughout this ordeal. God makes and keeps promises. The promises of God belong to us through our Yes and our Amen! So, don't stop believing for God to come through for you. I still believe in household salvation. I believe that God placed me here to show the beauty and power of God. God doesn't do anything in vain. God loves you and me. God will do whatever it takes to get your heart and to keep it <-- this is true. He is a jealous God. What belongs to Him stays with Him. He does not share. He is God. So, when you read this I want you to know that life happens and that we cannot control anything. We can control our temper and our attitudes. We can control how we react to our circumstances. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. Be blessed and thank you for reading. Have a beautiful day.