I am still a mess. I am working out my emotions still and I am not sorry for being distant. I need time to check myself. It's good for me to be alone at times. I am still very tired and I'm still very upset, but I will be okay. I promise. I didn't want to think about things like that and it's upsetting still but I am going to focus on this weekend. I am going to enjoy my time with family. I'm tired of people. I am tired of talking. I am tired of putting on a smile. I am not bitter. I am not mad. I am not sad. I am indifferent. I am working through things and I am not in the mood for it. How can someone be so causal with it? "You need to put him down." What? Uh no, I'm done going to put him to sleep right now because he acts fine. He doesn't look like he is in pain. I am sure he is and the fact that he is bothers me and I wish I could take the pain away. I hate seeing him suffering with his mouth. I pray it heals on its own. You'd think she would have cleaned. You'd think she would have popped it and sewn it up. She wasn't my choice and forcing someone to do that within a few hours and gripping at the owner because she didn't come right then. Well, you called after I kept calling numerous times. You have no right to grip me out because I didn't call you back. I have proof I called you at least 10 times and no one freaking picked up the phone. So, if someone has the right to be mad here it's me. So, save your crap for someone who cares. You were about to see a really mean side to me if Robert wasn't there and trust me, I can be mean. Don't get snippy with me. I'm not stupid. I've been through enough with sooner to know what's wrong with him. He isn't going to be put down because of an abscess in his mouth. And you have the nerve to keep him under for too long and blame me for it?! No!!!! You should know better. Had she done it any longer she would have killed him. He's an old dog. He may be on his last leg, but I'll be dang if he passes because someone is forcibly telling me he needs to because he is in pain or so you think. I am tired of people shoving their ideas down my throat. It's exhausting. I'm tired of people treating me like I'm stupid. Lady clearly hasn't ever seen me mad. Had the other woman been there she wouldn't have done this to me. She knows my dog. He trusts her and the whole time he was in the car my baby cried. I mean cried. He had tears down his face and snot running and it was horrible to see him like that. I cried and held him because I promise you had she done something to him without my permission. There's no telling what I would have done. I am a very vengeful person and trust me, she would not be practicing as a vet anymore in this state or any other state. She made me mad. I'm telling you if you ever experienced someone like this you know exactly how I am feeling right now and truth be told while I was holding my baby as he held onto me and cried on my lap. I became this force to be reckoned with at that moment. I was in full on rip your face off mode. I was seeing red and held onto him all the way to my mom's house with such rage in surging throughout my body. Look, this may come to a shock to you reader, but I am a human and you will see me fly off the handle more than once in life and it's not pretty. Hardly anyone ever sees that side of me, but that woman drew that out of me. I am working through my issues. I am not one to screw with because I will make you regret ever meeting me. You mistake my kindness as weakness and that's your fault. I am not happy with it. I have this anger still inside of me. It will take a lot for it go away on its own. So, now that you know that I serious anger issues over people forcing me to do something you'll know see me differently. And honestly that's fine so, now that I have all of this off my chest I am tired. I am so thankful that Robert was there to keep my mess under wraps or else it would have been ugly. Thank you for reading my sucky ordeal and I hope you have a wonderful holiday.