At the end of the day I can still say that God is good. I may face unforeseen circumstances, but that's okay! God is still there holding my hand. It doesn't matter how bad of a day it is because God makes everything better. Even in the midst of my pains, He is good. That's something the world doesn't see and why is that? You see what you want to and you hear what you want. I know that it may seem unfair, but that's life. He is near to the broken-hearted. He is our ever present help in our time of need. If God is silent to me that means that He is fiercely fighting on my behalf. He doesn't need me to question His every move. He wants me to sit and obey. I have to trust Him. I have to have faith that He will do what He promised. I hate waiting. I am the most impatient person I know and I hate being in the same spot for too long. People taking verses and misconstrues them. It's one of my biggest pet peeves. I will call you out. I want you to call me out if you think my behavior is questionable. Iron sharpens iron. I need that friction from my brothers and sisters in Christ. How can we grow if we are too scared to step out in faith? How can we help other Christians grow if we are too afraid to call them out? I believe in household salvation. I am calling it out. I'm not afraid to call out the prodigal son or daughter. That tug on your heart isn't imaginary. It's God. He is calling to your deepest parts. You are born incomplete. He is the only One who can complete you. I want you to know that prayer works. I just can't understand the wedge. I can't fathom the divide. You understand that the emptiness you feel can't be filled by things in this world, right? I want you see Him for yourself. He is the light in the darkness. He is peace for your restlessness. He is the healer you need. I know what it's like to run. I know what my life was like before He got ahold of me. He is a good, good Father. I ran so hard and fast. I hid my shame and my pains. I didn't think anyone cared. I hid my heart and made it worse. I found love in all the wrong places. God got a hold of me. He was jealous that I wasn't giving Him my love and my affection. He pursued me until I couldn't take it anymore. He saw me in all my dirty, filthy, messed up self. And you wanna know what He did? He picked me up and held me. He let me hit Him and try to escape from Him, but His love and His pull was so strong. I finally gave in and just cried. How could He love someone like me? He knew I needed to be saved. I couldn't do it myself because believe me, I tried. I tried so hard until I almost broke. So, before you say you know me, you have no idea the hell I waked through just to be here today. I am no longer a weak, scared little girl, but a strong, confident, and a warrior who won her battles. I have the scars to prove it. Today, let His love wrap you up and make you whole again. You weren't made to do this alone. You weren't made to fight alone. You were born for such a time as this my friend, so come back and let God show you just how it feels to be loved. I want you to be encouraged and understand that God loves you with an endless love. He doesn't want you to clean yourself up. That's His job. You lay it down. You let it go and surrender your whole heart. Let it down at the foot of the cross and see if your life doesn't get better from here.