What do you do and how do you act once the blessings have come and gone? How do you handle the promises once it has been fulfilled? I am not sure how to explain this because I haven't ever heard anyone talk about it. I haven't heard anyone say how they felt after God did what He promised. I know that God healed me. I know that I am still healing from the surgery. I know that I am still trying to work through these issues I have because I know in my heart and in deep in my soul that God did it, but why am I finding more comfort in doubt?Why am i looking for a problem when it has been taken care of? Why am I going out of my way to bring up my past? Did you know that you are doing more harm than good? Stop reopening old wounds that have formed scares. Stop trying to dig up your own sin and shame. Stop looking for what has already been taken care of and please, for the love of all things stop stressing yourself out over the what ifs. I know what God promised me. I know what God did and I felt it. I can't for the life of me understand why I'm still trying to dig it back up. God healed me. I am still healing. I have a few more weeks until my eardrum is completely healed. I still have packing behind the eardrum that will slowly dissolve by the next month. I am freaking myself out for no reason. I know the infection is gone. I know that if it bleeds <-- not normal after this long and if it starts to act weird DO NOT FREAK OUT!!!! Let God handle it. I think that should be my motto this season. How do you handle yourself once the blessings have come? You know the ones you have desperately prayed for and when God delivers it to you. How do you take care of it? Do you try to give it back? <-- I've done this before and it was encouraging to know that God actually meant it for me. STOP TRYING TO GIVE IT BACK! God doesn't not go back on His Word. God DOES NOT go back on HIS WORD! The gifts that were meant for you will stay with you. I struggle with this and for that reason I keep trying to look the gift horse in the mouth. Stop trying to find something wrong with it. You think God made a mistake with your gift? Your blessings are there as a reminder that God is faithful. That He is good. I know I'm probably speaking in circles here, but I'm telling you once it is given to you and you quickly open it like a kid on Christmas and once you have it all said and done with it's a " now what"? Type of feeling. Well, take the gift(s) and utilize them. Grow with them and try to understand them. I'm trying to get my feelings out on post and I know I'm doing an okay job, but I want to tell you that God is faithful. He is good. He is the God of miracles. He brought you out to bring you back in and for you to say "no thanks" is a slap in His face. Who are you to tell God "No thanks, try again." <--- tread carefully folks. God doesn't take too kindly to our hatefulness. I'm putting that nicely. I have slapped God in the face and let me tell you that He got ahold of me and my hand that He almost broke it. It took a full year for it heal. Do NOT reprimand Him for helping you. God does NOT have to, but He loves us enough to give us joy, peace, love, and life. So, the next time God fulfills His promises in your life thank Him. Thank Him for the wonderful gifts He has prepared for you and your life. Do NOT allow the pain of yesteryear to get to you. Do NOT allow the issues of your past to tangle you and trip you. Do NOT give doubt that foothold. Do NOT hold your hand out to chaos for when God shows up. He causes things to come to order. Because He is a God of order. When God gives you rest, peace, hope, joy, and life do NOT pass them by instead grab hold of them and cling to them. God loves you. God wants the best for you. He gives you gifts to bless you. He wants to show you that yes, He in fact cares deeply about you. He didn't leave you. He didn't abandon you. He wants to lead you to repentance. For it is His loving kindness that captures our soul. He knows what is best for us. He draws us to Him closer every step of the way. You are not alone in this battle. Oh that you would know the love of the Father. I pray that you get what I'm trying to convey to you. I pray that you grasp this concept that I'm trying to tell you. I pray that you don't let God's incredible and awesome gifts pass you by out of fear. Stop waiting and go after it. Go after your dreams and your passions. I hope you find encouragement in these words and I pray that you have a beautiful day.