I am in continuous awe of God and His faithfulness in my life. I knew it would be hard and I knew that it would be an annoyance nonetheless, but God has been close by my side every step of the way.
I may have had some freak out moments and that's okay because I am human. I am going to have my moments of doubts. I know that I had to walk through some things this season and it made me cling to Him that much more and it made my heart open to trust and having faith even when it was hard.
I am sure that bored people with my struggles. I'm sure I lost some friends on Facebook and that's okay they always come back. I am just excited to have this surgery. I moved it up not knowing all the mess I was going to go through in wake of this surgery. My eardrum did something weird and it made me miserable that Saturday. It stayed with me until Sunday night earlier Monday morning. I was so devastated when my ear kept screwing up.
I can say this that my infection is gone. I can say that my surgery is happening on time. I know that even when the enemy has been hitting me double/ triple time. The Word still remains. That pesky devil was working overtime to stop this from happening.
I have to be straight with you and tell you that yes, I had very little faith these past few days. I found it hard to see the blessings in this storm. I found it hard to see the light at the end of this long and dark tunnel.
I didn't want to get my hopes up again. I was so scared and that I almost threw up in the office today. I was shaking I was so scared. I don't know what came over me I was so afraid and anxious. It was overwhelming at one point today.
I can't tell you how it felt when he said my ear was clean and dry. The infection was gone. God did something inside of my ear. I can't explain it, but God.
You are going to walk through hard stuff in this lifetime and you are going to question if God even still cares about you or even listens to you. Heck, you're gonna ask if God can still see you. Yes, God sees you and He hears you. He hasn't left you. He didn't walk away from you.
God has given me words throughout this season and I have clung to them. God has shown His faithfulness. God has shown His goodness and mercy. God has shown His graciousness and compassion towards me.
I understand who God is and I understand who God is to me. I will raise my children to know and understand who their God is because He is a personal God. He longs for that one on one relationship with His children. He will always be apart of my life. My children will see God in a way that they can't explain. They will understand who He is at a young age. I will train my children in the way of Word. I have clung to His everlasting arms so many times that I have lost count.
I know that before I got this ear infection that all we wanted to do was start a family. It came like a flood. It one one things after another and I couldn't catch a break from it. The waves kept crashing down on me. I wanted to run from it. I knew I had an anchor. I knew that I had hope that arose out of my fears of being without God's hand over my life. I wanted to give up. I wanted to jump ship. I wanted to drown in the fears and the seas of uncertainty.
I am so thankful for my dr and the nurse who both prayed and thanked God for His unwavering promises. My dr held my hand as all three of us thank God for His incredible healing and His incredible faithfulness in my life.
God truly does love us. He isn't just some made up fantasy. He isn't some unknown force. He isn't a mean God. He is full of compassion for His children. He is fair. He is Just. He is kind. He is good! He is faithful through and through. He makes promises and He actually keeps them! He protects us. He is all about rules and boundaries to protect and help us. He gives me joy. He gives me peace. He gives me hope and love and life. I will not ever stop giving God all the praise and glory and honor.
He has done so much for me. He has brought me through the death like situations. He has made a way when there seemed to be no way. He kept me sane.
So, don't stop praying. Don't stop pushing. Don't give up just yet, because your blessing is right on the other side of your pain. I am grateful and I am thankful for things God has done and will continue to do in my life.
I am so thankful for people who prayed for me. I am grateful for your friendship. I am still not sure on how to repay for your loving kindness. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I pray that God blesses you in a new way. Have a blessed week.
I may have had some freak out moments and that's okay because I am human. I am going to have my moments of doubts. I know that I had to walk through some things this season and it made me cling to Him that much more and it made my heart open to trust and having faith even when it was hard.
I am sure that bored people with my struggles. I'm sure I lost some friends on Facebook and that's okay they always come back. I am just excited to have this surgery. I moved it up not knowing all the mess I was going to go through in wake of this surgery. My eardrum did something weird and it made me miserable that Saturday. It stayed with me until Sunday night earlier Monday morning. I was so devastated when my ear kept screwing up.
I can say this that my infection is gone. I can say that my surgery is happening on time. I know that even when the enemy has been hitting me double/ triple time. The Word still remains. That pesky devil was working overtime to stop this from happening.
I have to be straight with you and tell you that yes, I had very little faith these past few days. I found it hard to see the blessings in this storm. I found it hard to see the light at the end of this long and dark tunnel.
I didn't want to get my hopes up again. I was so scared and that I almost threw up in the office today. I was shaking I was so scared. I don't know what came over me I was so afraid and anxious. It was overwhelming at one point today.
I can't tell you how it felt when he said my ear was clean and dry. The infection was gone. God did something inside of my ear. I can't explain it, but God.
You are going to walk through hard stuff in this lifetime and you are going to question if God even still cares about you or even listens to you. Heck, you're gonna ask if God can still see you. Yes, God sees you and He hears you. He hasn't left you. He didn't walk away from you.
God has given me words throughout this season and I have clung to them. God has shown His faithfulness. God has shown His goodness and mercy. God has shown His graciousness and compassion towards me.
I understand who God is and I understand who God is to me. I will raise my children to know and understand who their God is because He is a personal God. He longs for that one on one relationship with His children. He will always be apart of my life. My children will see God in a way that they can't explain. They will understand who He is at a young age. I will train my children in the way of Word. I have clung to His everlasting arms so many times that I have lost count.
I know that before I got this ear infection that all we wanted to do was start a family. It came like a flood. It one one things after another and I couldn't catch a break from it. The waves kept crashing down on me. I wanted to run from it. I knew I had an anchor. I knew that I had hope that arose out of my fears of being without God's hand over my life. I wanted to give up. I wanted to jump ship. I wanted to drown in the fears and the seas of uncertainty.
I am so thankful for my dr and the nurse who both prayed and thanked God for His unwavering promises. My dr held my hand as all three of us thank God for His incredible healing and His incredible faithfulness in my life.
God truly does love us. He isn't just some made up fantasy. He isn't some unknown force. He isn't a mean God. He is full of compassion for His children. He is fair. He is Just. He is kind. He is good! He is faithful through and through. He makes promises and He actually keeps them! He protects us. He is all about rules and boundaries to protect and help us. He gives me joy. He gives me peace. He gives me hope and love and life. I will not ever stop giving God all the praise and glory and honor.
He has done so much for me. He has brought me through the death like situations. He has made a way when there seemed to be no way. He kept me sane.
So, don't stop praying. Don't stop pushing. Don't give up just yet, because your blessing is right on the other side of your pain. I am grateful and I am thankful for things God has done and will continue to do in my life.
I am so thankful for people who prayed for me. I am grateful for your friendship. I am still not sure on how to repay for your loving kindness. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I pray that God blesses you in a new way. Have a blessed week.